• Hey Guest,

    We wanted to share a quick update with the community.

    Our public expense ledger is now live, allowing anyone to see how donations are used to support the ongoing operation of the site.

    👉 View the ledger here

    Over the past year, increased regulatory pressure in multiple regions like UK OFCOM and Australia's eSafety has led to higher operational costs, including infrastructure, security, and the need to work with more specialized service providers to keep the site online and stable.

    If you value the community and would like to help support its continued operation, donations are greatly appreciated. If you wish to donate via Bank Transfer or other options, please open a ticket.

    Donate via cryptocurrency:

    Bitcoin (BTC):
    Ethereum (ETH):
    Monero (XMR):
fkyou

fkyou

...
Oct 1, 2022
497
Those who impulsively suicide..how do they do it?..i second guess my ctb decision a million times..how do they not?..the idea that you'll end yr existence once and for all..the good parts of life.. it's true you are having big problems in yr life that push you to want to suicide..but..the idea that I'll leave everything I love about life is hard.so how do they do it?.
I consider an "impulsive" suicide what's performed after a short period of time.
The word 'impulsive' is a little bit degrading cause it assumes the person didn't know what he was doing.but we all know suicide isn't easy.it's not like someone who hang themselves didn't know what he's doing "with all the pain it involves".or whatever other method they used.
 
Last edited:
  • Like
Reactions: Zanmato, timechained, Forever Sleep and 2 others
2messdup

2messdup

Enlightened
Feb 10, 2024
1,370
Those who impulsively suicide..how do they do it?..i second guess my ctb decision a million times..how do they not?..the idea that you'll end yr existence once and for all..the good parts of life.. it's true you are having big problems in yr life that push you to want to suicide..but..the idea that I'll leave everything I love about life is hard.so how do they do it?.
I consider an "impulsive" suicide what's performed after a short period of time.
The word 'impulsive' is a little bit degrading cause it assumes the person didn't know what he was doing.but we all know suicide isn't easy.it's not like someone who hang themselves didn't know what he's doing "with all the pain it involves".or whatever other method they used.
In my case I'm constantly wishing to do it but wanting to make sure everything's sorted (will, life insurance, declutter etc) before I ctb. But my ctb could end up impulsive because when I'm overwhelmed I forget about everything else and get braver. So far not complete obviously because I'm still here but my preparations are nearly done and I get overwhelmed nearly every day, then I'm done
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: pthnrdnojvsc and NoPoint2Life
flkywch

flkywch

Member
Jan 19, 2025
34
yeah i can give you some insight. ive been in a train station after waking up feeling terrible and i was ridiculously close to jumping in front of the train, my body almost moved by itself. i obviously didn't do it but it seriously felt like my head just snapped from mental pain and went into some sort of out of body experience, almost like a high. my survival instinct completely disappeared and it was like someone was pushing me from behind onto the railtrack and i had to force myself to not get pushed. im guessing for others it's similar where it's sort of an out of body experience because survival instinct is STRONG. you rly need some sort of extreme mental break to escape it esp when it's a srsly impulsive method such as jumping/trains instead of SN
 
Last edited:
  • Like
  • Informative
  • Hugs
Reactions: fkyou, zzz-, pthnrdnojvsc and 1 other person
needwaytohell

needwaytohell

Member
Apr 2, 2025
60
If something like a gun would kill me I'm going to do it. I'm impulsive with it because of the traumas I face internally and the pain of hiding from others pretending to be normal pulling the trigger isn't very hard. But if it's anything else I wouldn't I'd think plan and commit
 
  • Informative
Reactions: pthnrdnojvsc
2messdup

2messdup

Enlightened
Feb 10, 2024
1,370
yeah i can give you some insight. ive been in a train station after waking up feeling terrible and i was ridiculously close to jumping in front of the train, my body almost moved by itself. i obviously didn't do it but it seriously felt like my head just snapped from mental pain and went into some sort of out of body experience, almost like a high. my survival instinct completely disappeared and it was like someone was pushing me from behind onto the railtrack and i had to force myself to not get pushed. im guessing for others it's similar where it's sort of an out of body experience because survival instinct is STRONG. you rly need some sort of extreme mental break to escape it esp when it's a srsly impulsive method such as jumping/trains instead of SN
This exactly. I have maybe DID traits and one part pushes in and gets me to call the crisis team when things get very close, but that part seems to be getting quieter and weaker....
 
  • Informative
  • Like
Reactions: pthnrdnojvsc and flkywch
Lyn

Lyn

Momentary
Mar 1, 2025
301
Doing something impulsively is by definition an action without much forethought.
The mind narrows. All the "good parts" fade.
And they are left with desperation and determination.
It's not that they don't think about it.
It's that in that moment there is no place for reasons. Just the urge.

the idea that I'll leave everything I love about life
Well, some don't have much left to love.
 
  • Like
Reactions: Paper_Cut_93 and pthnrdnojvsc
F

Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
15,263
I always wonder about this. Just how many suicides actually are that impulsive. Perhaps the act is but surely, they must have been having thoughts for a while. I imagine most people try to fix their problems before leaping to the idea of suicide straight away.

I guess it's different for everyone but I imagine the thought process to consider actually doing it has been established. In which case- how impulsive actually is it?

As for the act itself, I can see how someone would think that they would need to be in that frame of mind to actually do it. If it's a more violent/ scary method like jumping, I imagine you would need a more adrenalin fuelled wreckless moment to do it.
 
  • Like
Reactions: fkyou
JesiBel

JesiBel

protoTYPE:cclxxv
Dec 5, 2024
1,112
If your method is easy and fast... in a moment of crisis you execute it and everything is over.

There may be a situation where you're swept away into complete despair, and you just do it. Sometimes it's difficult to act rationally when mental pain/suffering consumes you.

It depends on how impulsive you normally are, whether you let yourself be carried away by your emotions or manage to control yourself.
 
  • Like
Reactions: cassie and 2messdup
D

daysfeel

Member
Oct 6, 2023
50
When you've lost literally everything good in your life, exhausted every resource, and everything just feels like a nightmare you can't get away from. Imagine your deepest fear coming true, and then imagine something even more terrifying than that. The one thing you can't handle. And that's how impulsive suicides end up happening.
 
  • Like
Reactions: divinemistress87, Ligottian, 2messdup and 1 other person
fkyou

fkyou

...
Oct 1, 2022
497
When you've lost literally everything good in your life, exhausted every resource, and everything just feels like a nightmare you can't get away from. Imagine your deepest fear coming true, and then imagine something even more terrifying than that. The one thing you can't handle. And that's how impulsive suicides end up happening.
Most of the people who i heard killed themselves weren't in super strained situations.i heard someone killed themselves because their famille didn't let him choose the major he wants in university.meanwille some people struggle for long periods of times till we are exhausted and we still can't let go.
 
  • Like
Reactions: daysfeel
T

timechained

Experienced
Apr 15, 2025
211
Those who impulsively suicide..how do they do it?..i second guess my ctb decision a million times..how do they not?..the idea that you'll end yr existence once and for all..the good parts of life.. it's true you are having big problems in yr life that push you to want to suicide..but..the idea that I'll leave everything I love about life is hard.so how do they do it?.
I consider an "impulsive" suicide what's performed after a short period of time.
The word 'impulsive' is a little bit degrading cause it assumes the person didn't know what he was doing.but we all know suicide isn't easy.it's not like someone who hang themselves didn't know what he's doing "with all the pain it involves".or whatever other method they used.
How do they do it??
With great courage and will power!!

They probably also tried many methods, most of them mentally at the very least, before finally committing to the one method.

As someone whose tried a lot of methods, I find committing the hardest part because once you fail an attempt and research more you realise that one attempt required more will power to overcome the body's defences and so you look for the next "easier" method that hopefully bypasses it.
 

Similar threads

The Disqualified
Replies
3
Views
277
Suicide Discussion
Unsure and Useless
Unsure and Useless
Unsure and Useless
Replies
24
Views
689
Suicide Discussion
cinnadoggirl1
cinnadoggirl1