Venting Those who ctb were brave and are fortunate

[FuneralCry]

I always envy those who managed to permanently escape from this existence on their own terms, I think theres so much bravery involved in ctb especially if the method is something like hanging, it's admirable to me how people managed to free themselves and prevented suffering as a result, it's something admirable when leaving isn't straightforward and it's purposely made so difficult.

Those are the only people I envy and I see those who no longer exist as being the only true fortunate ones, those who managed to escape were fortunate as they are now at peace, they are free. I see so much beauty in leaving this world, it's beautiful the thought of being unaware and sleeping eternally as one cannot be harmed by that, existence is the ultimate cause of all harm.

I see ceasing to exist as being beautiful instead of tragic, the only tragedy lies in the suffering that existing causes and to be free from the tragedy that is existence is something I will always envy. Suicide means self care to me, it's safety from suffering and peace from pain. Nobody with the ability to suffer endlessly could ever be fortunate.

 

[TheMetalhead]

I can relate a lot to what you just wrote. I consider suicide as the most beautiful of deaths, I continue to fanthasize about my own CTB everyday, makes me feel at ease despite what I'm going through.
Whenever you feel as though your life is not meant to continue any longer - ceasing existence is the best way out.
Even though my friends laugh with me about my CTB, I know they'd feel sad had I been gone forever.
I have overcame SI, store a good quality rope in my closet, ordered a SN today and I feel much better compared to not having an alternative, because suicide is an option ;)

 

[アホペンギン]

You are by all means right about this statement. I also view the people who managed to ctb as very courageous and very fortunate to have escaped such a horrible existence, notably if they left with a method that would induce very high SI and lots of discomfort. After they ctb, they are now resting, in peace and immune to all the problems going on in this world.

 

[Unattainable666]

I'm ashamed to say that I am envious of someone who has ctb. All the shit I have to deal with is so overwhelming and the thought of not having to deal with sny of it is enticing to me.

 

[GreenTree]

I always envy those who managed to permanently escape from this existence on their own terms, I think theres so much bravery involved in ctb especially if the method is something like hanging, it's admirable to me how people managed to free themselves and prevented suffering as a result, it's something admirable when leaving isn't straightforward and it's purposely made so difficult.

Those are the only people I envy and I see those who no longer exist as being the only true fortunate ones, those who managed to escape were fortunate as they are now at peace, they are free. I see so much beauty in leaving this world, it's beautiful the thought of being unaware and sleeping eternally as one cannot be harmed by that, existence is the ultimate cause of all harm.

I see ceasing to exist as being beautiful instead of tragic, the only tragedy lies in the suffering that existing causes and to be free from the tragedy that is existence is something I will always envy. Suicide means self care to me, it's safety from suffering and peace from pain. Nobody with the ability to suffer endlessly could ever be fortunate.

If you ctb would you feel guilty for the suffering your family would feel for life from you dying.

 

[SolomonKado]

I always envy those who managed to permanently escape from this existence on their own terms, I think theres so much bravery involved in ctb especially if the method is something like hanging, it's admirable to me how people managed to free themselves and prevented suffering as a result, it's something admirable when leaving isn't straightforward and it's purposely made so difficult.

Those are the only people I envy and I see those who no longer exist as being the only true fortunate ones, those who managed to escape were fortunate as they are now at peace, they are free. I see so much beauty in leaving this world, it's beautiful the thought of being unaware and sleeping eternally as one cannot be harmed by that, existence is the ultimate cause of all harm.

I see ceasing to exist as being beautiful instead of tragic, the only tragedy lies in the suffering that existing causes and to be free from the tragedy that is existence is something I will always envy. Suicide means self care to me, it's safety from suffering and peace from pain. Nobody with the ability to suffer endlessly could ever be fortunate.

When I was 6 and my dad died from a horrible accident it tore me apart. By 19 when my mother had a rollover accident and died my views had changed. I lived with her to see she struggled so much.

When I was told about her accident I wasn't sad. I found out how painful this world could be and I was happy for her. Her pain was finally over. She could finally be at peace. That's how I view death.

 

[Yakamoz]

Fortune seeks the brave

 

[Huggs]

I don't see it as being fortunate, but it's good they are no longer suffering. I wish to join them.

 

[bluebus]

I am always in awe when I see someone that caught the bus using a very painful and/or slow method. I don't think I could do that. I want my last moments to be as peaceful and enjoyable as possible.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Romanticizing death poses the same problems that romanticizing life does...

 

[Ambivalent1]

They are gods of their own worlds now.

 

[FuneralCry]

If you ctb would you feel guilty for the suffering your family would feel for life from you dying.

I'm not obligated to continue enduring this existence I was burdened with, I could never be. If I had a reliable method plan that I felt confident in there would be no guilt in freeing myself from an existence I never would had chosen to endure, suicide is a human right and once I'm free from this existence nothing can concern me anyway. Death erases all we knew.