Venting Those who act like existence is something positive just makes me wish for death even more

[FuneralCry]

Any kind of positivity towards existence is just toxic and repulsive, it's an insult to all the suffering that exists and existing is nothing but suffering. The fact that life even exists at all is beyond tragic, the existence of life is the most terrible horrific tragedy that caused nothing but harm. It's disgusting when they act like existence is something good even know it could never be and as a result they force life into this hellish world and are so anti-suicide, it's evil honestly how they impose suffering into others and wish to prolong it no matter what.

Existence itself really is the true problem and could never be a desirable state, I'd see it as better that existence is erased, human existence is the most futile, hopeless and torturous burden, I'd always prefer to be permanently unconcious than to be tormented in this meaningless existence for decades on end.
It's truly so tragic and disgusts me how so many dismiss how hellish existence truly is, no matter what there could never be anything positive about how existing beings have been tormented endlessly all throughout history.

And to all those who go on about "hope" and how life is so "beautiful" well there is literally no limit as to how much agony you can feel, existing can get so torturous way beyond how anyone can imagine and this is beyond disturbing. Existence really is nothing more than an unnecessary harm, it's a hellish imposition where one is just destined for nothing but to decay and feel immense agony from the hell that is very old age, I'd never want to exist and I'm disgusted by those who act like existence is something so positive, those pro-lifers just make me wish for death even more.

 

[whywere]

68 years old and loving it!

Age has nothing to do with happiness or looking out for others, at least not for me.

Walter

 

[derpyderpins]

Is there no room for the possibility that there is plenty of bad - let's even say the world is overwhelmingly mostly bad - but that beauty can still exist in a limited capacity?

 

[divinemistress36]

Toxic positivity makes me want to die even more to

 

[WoNkEy_DoNkEy]

@FuneralCry I can tell you'd love nothing more than to press a button and end all of existence and your experiences both on and off of sasu just confuse and enrage you even more. It's sad what little there is left of a person in there as time goes on. You vent like a middle aged person yet sadly you're in one of the youngest age brackets.

68 years old and loving it!

Age has nothing to do with happiness or looking out for others, at least not for me.

Walter

If you're really loving it then are you sure you're in the right place @whywere ?
I'm trying to recall if I know of anyone older than you on here.

 

[AnonymousL]

while I hate living myself , I don't think we should hate on people that are loving life.

If we want them to let us die in peace , we can let them live in peace.

The life lovers forcing us to live is wrong tho, I agree on that.
But why should we be bothered by people that enjoy living ? It's good for them. Honestly, a bit jealous. Wish that was me. But I'll never be that person and that's sad. But it is what it is.

 

[divinemistress36]

@FuneralCry I can tell you'd love nothing more than to press a button and end all of existence and your experiences both on and off of sasu just confuse and enrage you even more. It's sad what little there is left of a person in there as time goes on. You vent like a middle aged person yet sadly you're in one of the youngest age brackets.


If you're really loving it then are you sure you're in the right place @whywere ?
I'm trying to recall if I know of anyone older than you on here.

Linda

 

[AnonymousL]

68 years old and loving it!

Age has nothing to do with happiness or looking out for others, at least not for me.

Walter

Walter, genuinely curious why you are on this forum? Not that you're not welcome! But mostly people with that mindset are rare here.

 

[exzźy]

@FuneralCry I can tell you'd love nothing more than to press a button and end all of existence and your experiences both on and off of sasu just confuse and enrage you even more. It's sad what little there is left of a person in there as time goes on. You vent like a middle aged person yet sadly you're in one of the youngest age brackets.

mf u rly have some kind of kink to trash talk FC under every post of hers. let people be people and their frustrations are their own burdens, if someone needs to vent, talk about their burdens, let them do so. even if it's just a bot made to post this kind of posts, leave them, everything that happens around us has a reason. I don't tend to be rude to others nor do I bother to comment on any posts, but simply seeing your outright and senseless hatred towards someone you most likely don't even know gives me ick. don't let a good day distract you from the failure you have become

 

[xinino]

Dualism hold itself my friend, pessimist and optimist will always exist, your opinion doesn't not matter. Evil will win.

Toxic positivity makes me want to die even more to

Man, you should read about e/acc and techno optimist manifesto

If we want them to let us die in peace , we can let them live in peace

Oh man, I am going crazy right now. @AnonymousL your irrationality is beautiful. I probably need to collect quotes, "SASU quotes".

 

[betternever2havbeen]

And to all those who go on about "hope" and how life is so "beautiful" well there is literally no limit as to how much agony you can feel, existing can get so torturous way beyond how anyone can imagine and this is beyond disturbing. Existence really is nothing more than an unnecessary harm, it's a hellish imposition where one is just destined for nothing but to decay and feel immense agony from the hell that is very old age, I'd never want to exist and I'm disgusted by those who act like existence is something so positive, those pro-lifers just make me wish for death even more.

Can I ask why you focus so much on old age? You're 23 right? Got about 40 years before you even have to worry about that. Don't hate me for saying this but a therapist could probably really help you out with your anxiety around old age and suffering.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Can I ask why you focus so much on old age? You're 23 right? Got about 40 years before you even have to worry about that. Don't hate me for saying this but a therapist could probably really help you out with your anxiety around old age and suffering.

I guess she's just thinking ahead since the way things are going there's no reason to believe she'll be going anywhere. Eventually any given point in the future will be reached. When I was her age I certainly didn't think I'd be in my 30's.

You know it will literally rain pentobarbital from the sky before FC steps foot in a therapist's office.

 

[WoNkEy_DoNkEy]

mf u rly have some kind of kink to trash talk FC under every post of hers. I don't tend to be rude to others nor do I bother to comment on any posts, but simply seeing your outright and senseless hatred towards someone you most likely don't even know gives me ick. don't let a good day distract you from the failure you have become

@exzźy
Mother fucker you really have some kind of kink.
Don't let a good day distract you from the failure you've become.

So the above quotes aren't rude or digs at me then no?
Now have a look at my post again, really look! Sentence #1 I'm paraphrasing something she said on her profile a long time ago and restating it in reaction to her recent posts. The rest of it is an important observation and a sadness for the fact that she's gonna be around a looooong time and unfortunately she vents like someone whose been alive for 2-3 times her actual age. I'll admit that in the past I've taken a few posts regarding her too far and been warned but this is not one of those times and other users on here like @ijustwishtodie and @Suicidebydeath will attest to the fact that (whilst not always perfect) I have her best interests at heart.

 

[halleyscomet]

@exzźy
Mother fucker you really have some kind of kink.
Don't let a good day distract you from the failure you've become.

So the above quotes aren't rude or digs at me then no?
Now have a look at my post again, really look! Sentence #1 I'm paraphrasing something she said on her profile a long time ago and restating it in reaction to her recent posts. The rest of it is an important observation and a sadness for the fact that she's gonna be around a looooong time and unfortunately she vents like someone whose been alive for 2-3 times her actual age. I'll admit that in the past I've taken a few posts regarding her too far and been warned but this is not one of those times and other users on here like @ijustwishtodie and @Suicidebydeath will attest to the fact that (whilst not always perfect) I have her best interests at heart.

Forgive me if I'm butting in where I don't belong, but I don't see an issue? I understand FC vents a lot but why is it a big deal? That's what this forum is for? Am I missing something here? I'm being genuine here I'm just not understanding.

 

[Suicidebydeath]

Forgive me if I'm butting in where I don't belong, but I don't see an issue? I understand FC vents a lot but why is it a big deal? That's what this forum is for? Am I missing something here? I'm being genuine here I'm just not understanding.

I assume there was a misunderstanding and nobody was attacking FC(in this thread), it's difficult to read people's intentions on the internet and we're all strangers IRL. I agree with you, that FC should be able to vent and that's one of the uses of this forum.

 

[whywere]

Walter, genuinely curious why you are on this forum? Not that you're not welcome! But mostly people with that mindset are rare here.

A truly fair question.

1) I have had 2 attempts before, 72 hour holds, hospitalizations and a state court appearance where the state wanted to lock me up for at least 6 months and more like a year, so I have NOT had all sunshine and roses by no means.

2) With my age of 68 plus, and I am NOT EVER snotty, I have a lot of life experience that just might, key is might, help and/or at least make folks think. Always remember that ctb is one and done, no do overs, especially if it is a very emotional moment or situation.

3) Also with my age, and in general, with all the hell that I have been through, kicked out by my "parents" at 18, hungry and homeless, working my ass off to get a head and then going to college at the age of 24. I have NEVER EVER had the luxury of playing video games and living with my parents after 18. Gall bladder cancer and then having a teenage PUNK blow through a stop sign and T-bone me and now I have 24/7 chronic pain and he did not get a scratch. I say PUNK because when the state trooper came into my hospital room to talk about the crash, he did not give a damn about me one bit it was that he missed "clubbing" that evening, ya right.

3a) I know so many others have had a tough time to and I love to help folks and make them feel good about themselves.

4) Coming on SaSu and ranting and raving each week about the same crap and not helping folks or even reading and commenting on some poor souls' thread, that is NOT me EVER. I feel that ultra negative writings all the time and not giving a damn about what I call family on here is just so darn sad, makes me cry and I like to be kind of like the balancing's scale on situations like that and be more positive and helpful. I am the ying to the yang.

5) I have NO ONE at all, no family no friends, no one. I have a brother and sister, but my "parents" poisoned their minds and they have not spoken to me in decades. Like when my "parents" died, it was in their wills as far as I was NOT invited to the wake or funeral. In fact my siblings would have had me arrested for trespassing if I would have showed up. So, I NEED so form of feeling like I belong somewhere to someone, which is SaSu for now at least.

6) With 24/7 chronic pain, if and when quantity overtakes quality of life, I have a VAD waiting for me.

Hope this answers some of your questions and feel free to always ask. Just be kind and thoughtful is all I ask.

Walter

 

[betternever2havbeen]

I guess she's just thinking ahead since the way things are going there's no reason to believe she'll be going anywhere. Eventually any given point in the future will be reached. When I was her age I certainly didn't think I'd be in my 30's.

You know it will literally rain pentobarbital from the sky before FC steps foot in a therapist's office.

Haha yeah I know it'll fall on deaf ears anyway, and I imagine she will still be here 50 years from now. But there's no reason she needs to torture herself worrying about it, but meh nothing anyone says will change how she feels ditto about being in 30s-not a decade I thought I'd reach back then but here I still am. I try not to think about the future too much cos the past is painful enough.

 

[Myforevercharlie]

@FuneralCry I can tell you'd love nothing more than to press a button and end all of existence and your experiences both on and off of sasu just confuse and enrage you even more. It's sad what little there is left of a person in there as time goes on. You vent like a middle aged person yet sadly you're in one of the youngest age brackets.


If you're really loving it then are you sure you're in the right place @whywere ?
I'm trying to recall if I know of anyone older than you on here.

He says he loves his age. Why he is here is non of your business. People can love life but still have their reasons to leave this world.

And yes, there are older people here than him.

 

[karmaisabitch]

Toxic positivity makes me want to die even more to

Me too! Nothing is nice about life.. my son death made me realize how ugly life can be
They prob didn't struggle yet! On time they will hate life too just give them time life is a curse drink everyone will drink from it eventually

Can I ask why you focus so much on old age? You're 23 right? Got about 40 years before you even have to worry about that. Don't hate me for saying this but a therapist could probably really help you out with your anxiety around old age and suffering.

I get like that too.. I don't want to age dying young is better

 

[WoNkEy_DoNkEy]

He says he loves his age. Why he is here is non of your business. People can love life but still have their reasons to leave this world.

And yes, there are older people here than him.

@Myforevercharlie I never asked why he was on here, I asked half heartedly if he was sure he was in the right place. As in I was thinking about recovery and off topic but again I never specifically asked even that. No harm here

 

[WoNkEy_DoNkEy]

Can I ask why you focus so much on old age? You're 23 right? Got about 40 years before you even have to worry about that. Don't hate me for saying this but a therapist could probably really help you out with your anxiety around old age and suffering.

@betternever2havbeen
What she consistently fails to do is to remind everyone about her many physical and mental health problems that started her on this path on the first place. She has every good reason to not wanna live anymore but through her autism she doesn't recognise that people on here would be a lot more sympathetic if she occasionally mentioned why she's really feeling suicidal rather than the pro-death rants and vents. Being too afraid of a botched attempt is obviously fair game and very relatable.

 

[betternever2havbeen]

@WoNkEy_DoNkEy that's a very good point and good way to look at it. She is definitely deserving of empathy for her struggles, it's just never about her personal situation anymore when she makes these threads, which makes it easy to misunderstand her. But I think maybe she does that to prevent anyone giving her advice or trying to help? She is SO averse to that, as we all know!

 

[Tesha]

Sorry, but why all the excuses? FC is perfectly able to defend herself. She's literate and clearly comprehends the comments surrounding her. She's deliberately choosing to ignore / interact.

 

[ytaddict]

They're not toxic for thinking life is good lil bro. Just like you seem to have experienced bad shit that made you see life as hellish, they experienced the good which made them see life as fun. They're not dismissing the bad they just havent seen it. In that sense they're not toxic they're blind. ...you might also be in some way too tho.

 

[betternever2havbeen]

Sorry, but why all the excuses? FC is perfectly able to defend herself. She's literate and clearly comprehends the comments surrounding her. She's deliberately choosing to ignore / interact.

True, that doesn't help either. She does interact on her profile if she's asked something but that seems to be it. Am guessing she probably has half of us on ignore