Those of you who are planning to ctb, what do you hope happens irl after you're gone?

[Silent_cries]

As someone who has been emotionally neglected, abused etc. within the psychiatric system I hope my story will finally be revealed to everyone around me so that they'll finally understand and belive what happened to me. I hope some certain psychiatrists I've had in the past gets fired too. Most of all I just want my story out there to leave a message to people. It might not change much, but if it'll at least give people some understanding that's good enough for me.

 

[lacrimosa]

The money I leave behind will get donated to a homeless shelter. Fuck my family, they don't need anymore money.

Also, after reading my posts on here, I won't give them (my family) my password or anything like that. But.. After reading my posts on here, they will understand how much I was suffering. My final goodbye thread will be my whole life story and then they will really know the torment I went through on a daily basis. And maybe this story can help others too as a cautionary tale...

 

[fleetingnight]

I used to want my main abusers to be outed. I guess they seem like they've changed, so if they really have, then I'm mostly okay with them living out a normal life with no consequences. Though, I'm not saying I think everyone should be okay with that. I just hope they know better than to ever work with children, no matter how long it's been since they acted abusive.
If I ctb, I want people to understand that it was mainly societal norms (needing to "fit in" or being punished for it) + capitalism/the rat race that killed me. I want to be used as an example of what happens when you're needlessly cruel to people over pointless things like appearance or gender, and when you force people to work themselves to death just to survive.

I can't deny I think about my art getting notoriety and being remembered by people after my death, though it feels selfish to want more people to mourn for me. So, it's probably for the best that I never get that kind of attention and it remains a fantasy

 

[Hvergelmir]

I did share the same sentiments, but no longer do.
I don't think the people involved have the mental capacity to understand. I'd simply cause guilt and suffering, for no reason. They'd maybe suffer greatly for a while, before defensively rationalizing it all as an expression of a faulty brain.
People are killing themselves all the time, and I've never seen anything good come out of it.

If I end it myself, I'd like to die alone, preferably having my corpse eaten by animals and forgotten. My belongings are not significant enough for me to care, and I don't owe anyone closure.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

After I'm gone, I couldn't care less what happens in/to this world.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I don't really care about what happens after I die since I'd be dead but, if I could make something happen after my death, I'd make it such that nobody remembers me. I don't understand why most people have a desire to be remembered. It makes no sense to me. I've always had a desire to be forgotten, not remembered

 

[Nefera]

I hope that the person who I'm going to leave my cat with takes good care of him

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I just hope people will realize they're finally free of being burdened by me and that they should be grateful that one less incel exists in the world when I die. I hope when they remember me, they can only feel disgusted that I was ever in their lives in the first place and that they can smile knowing the world is a better place without me in it.

 

[sos]

that everyone around me gets to live their life as if i never existed

and that everyone else that wants to catch the bus actually succeeds

you all owe me one for that last wish!!!!

 

[Forever Sleep]

I hope people will try to be understanding.

 

[trappedinthislife]

I just hope at least my relative knows that im trans. That having to hide who I am lead me to being like this.

 

[sancta-simplicitas]

As someone who has been emotionally neglected, abused etc. within the psychiatric system I hope my story will finally be revealed to everyone around me so that they'll finally understand and belive what happened to me. I hope some certain psychiatrists I've had in the past gets fired too. Most of all I just want my story out there to leave a message to people. It might not change much, but if it'll at least give people some understanding that's good enough for me.

Same as you. I wish my impulsive attempt right after I got home from that last therapy session had succeeded. That way it would be immediately traced back to my abusive therapist.

 

[bleeding_heart_show]

The planet could explode, or world peace could be achieved. either way it is meaningless to me because I will be dead.

If I was required to choose for something to happen though, I would choose for people to learn empathy. People should realize that others exist just as much as they do, and they themselves exist just as little as others do. Everybody is flawed in their own horrific ways. Everyone commits atrocities against one another, intentional or not. Everyone must consciously make the choice to better the lives of everyone around them, as hard as it is.

(I apologize if this is confusing to read, the wording is clumsy,)

 

[reimu]

I really wish that after doing so the world just forget of your existence. I don't like to think of what the after effects of what people close to me would think about it. I find myself being extremely lonely but I know that there are a decent amount of people that care about me and be devastated. Though a part of me feels like this existence is only some sort of simulation. I look outside and see "normal" people going on about their day and I can only think to myself that they are fake and not real people, they don't exist. I don't understand how so many people could exist in a world and be happy, normal, privileged without struggle.

I guess with that rant being done with, I really don't know. I guess I'd rather just be forgotten about as I find myself to be burden to those around me.

 

[rednights]

I'm realizing just now I haven't thought about this question very much. If I ever do, I tend to worry about the people my passing would affect. And that makes me sad so I try to avoid it.

So, I'd just like that they all move on and it doesn't shake them up too much. The rest doesn't matter.

 

[abchia]

This probably won't happen, but I hope those around me realize that none of them actually understood me. Ideally they will realize this and then move on quickly and know that I am at peace with my decision

 

[pulleditnearlyoff]

As someone who has been emotionally neglected, abused etc. within the psychiatric system I hope my story will finally be revealed to everyone around me so that they'll finally understand and belive what happened to me. I hope some certain psychiatrists I've had in the past gets fired too. Most of all I just want my story out there to leave a message to people. It might not change much, but if it'll at least give people some understanding that's good enough for me.

Feel the same! Hope they finally understand what they did to me and hope it changes something for other patients. But I'm afraid that won't happen. They will blame me nevertheless and just go on with their abusive "helping".

 

[SketchTurner]

After my immediate family that need me die I am planning on telling my extended family I'm leaving the country to become a monk, I may actually do it but will most likely commit suicide in a wilderness area so that my body isn't discovered. Ideally I want absolutely nothing but to be a mild story people forgot about, which won't be hard. The idea of dying in silence appeals to me.i want to disappear in silence and never be talked about again.

 

[Alexei_Kirillov]

I hope they put the money I leave them to good use and live their best lives.

 

[fwompie]

I hope they'll be proud of me that I still lasted this long. That they will look back and agree that I did my best and that I did all I could and that I just wasn't made for this world and that it's okay like this.
I want others to be okay with it and to know that I'm better off not being.

I'd like them to play silly songs at my funeral and drink and swim.

 

[anopenwound]

I hope what I tried to do in life will still reach people and possibly make them feel better, bring them comfort. I did try so hard.

I hope people around me will finally understand what I was going through and will be able to see it wasn't their fault. Absolutely nobody is.
With that thought, I hope they'll finally move on. A life that doesn't include me will certainly be way more peaceful.

 

[Velvet Fortress]

Honestly, I want my death to have as little an impact as possible. I really don't want to cause pain or discomfort to anyone. I just want to cleanly and quietly disappear.

 

[Steff1337]

I really don't care, except for my mother to keep caring for my cats. Also, before I CTB, I would say that I don't want a funeral, but to be cremated.

 

[eatantz]

I hope the world burns down into chaos, i hope global warming gets so bad and world war 3 breaks out. Basically i want my death to trigger the apocalypse

 

[hawkshorizon]

I've reached a point where there is nearly no one who will be significantly impacted when I'm gone.

I mainly think about my dog. I know he'll be well looked after, but we're very attached, and I wonder if my absence will cause him prolonged discomfort.

Maybe it's my ego projecting, giving my presence more credit than merited; dogs are very adaptive and he's resilient. Still, I worry.

 

[Guy089001]

Nothing. The wind will blow, leaves will pass, some people will still misunderstand me until they die too one day, the sun will set and then rise again, and I won't be here. This period of history will end, and that's that. Most, I think, want me dead or gone, anyway, which doesn't really depress me anymore. I'm reminded each and every day. We play the game, and some of us just lose. I can't explain it, but ever since I was born, I've been faced with that. I think it was always going to end this way.

 

[hawkshorizon]

Nothing. The wind will blow, leaves will pass, some people will still misunderstand me until they die too one day, the sun will set and then rise again, and I won't be here. This period of history will end, and that's that. Most, I think, want me dead or gone, anyway, which doesn't really depress me anymore. I'm reminded each and every day. We play the game, and some of us just lose. I can't explain it, but ever since I was born, I've been faced with that. I think it was always going to end this way.

"We play the game, and some of us just lose. I can't explain it, but ever since I was born, I've been faced with that. I think it was always going to end this way."

Well said. Predestinations, flawed genetics, environment; I can't explain it either, but I've long lived with the sense that I would end up where I find myself today.

 

[Bleneviola]

Well, I hope my parents move on. I hope people can forget me and not stay sad because I left.

 

[sleepingrabbit]

I hope they won't be too angry. Some people will, I know that. But I'm so tired of being blamed for feeling this way as if I have done nothing to change my attitude or situation. Why do they get to resent me for dying when I'd be the one forced to live if I didn't? So I guess if certain people are angry I won't care.

What I also hope.. I'm not sure. I want my loved ones to grieve my loss because it feels like a lot of people never cared for me like I needed to be cared for. A bad part of me wants them to feel bad for all the things they never did. I think that's a smaller part of me though. It's just a part of the typical fantasizing about people really caring once I'm gone. But I do want them to use the grief to learn to hold people closer, care more openly for them.

At the same time, I just want the world to forget me. To slip away quietly and to have it all end quietly. For no one to be sad and everyone to move on after a week. I'm conflicted on this matter.

Most of all I just want my story out there to leave a message to people.

Also yeah, this too.

 

[exitingtothevoid]

Thinking about how it will affect other people absolutely horrifies me and is one of the things that keeps me from actually doing it.