Venting this world is so cruel there's one thing that can help me but like idfk.

[coolgal82]

idfk. my words dont work rn cus im high as fuck but i just wanted to say something idk. the one thing that could make me happy and cure me is my besties but like theyre not online all the time and might leave and idk i just wish i could be with them 24/7 why cant i it hurts so much nothing is fun without them i dont have the motivation to do much when theyre not there alot of the time i hate it why cant they be here forever i wanna talk to them forever and ever and ever i love them sm im nothing without them idfk who i am nothing is even real i feel so bad rn but in a way i also feel good its like good sad not bad sad yknow? idk maybe thats just cus im high rn. on the pregabalin comedown and some ketamine.

im a fucking mess. i cant live like this i just need to die but i cant because theyre there so im stuck in this fucking limbo state where i cant live but i cant die and its awful and i hate it i wanna die so much i hope i just go to sleep one day and don't wake up i want my brain to just accept that like yeah im never gonna have them 24/7 so i might as well die. part of me wants them to just leave so i can have the finak push i need to ctb because that would definitely do it i think. idfk. i wish i knew how computers worked so i could put spyware on their devices to be with them forever and ever and ever. i hate everything i hate this world its too scary i hate myself i hate everyone everything is bad and scary and i hate it

 

[Mlifos & Sitoa]

I personally can't trust to my online friends (i don't have real one and i don't trust at all people irl), people sucks.

 

[tiredash]

Its the same for me, but if i had a woman who I could fully trust...