idelttoilfsadness21
turning my back towards death
- Jan 6, 2025
- 241
living in this specific world is unbearable...I'm being made to move out from being on record on traumas I still can't cope with years prior, and assumed my new one ive been living for months would help me get to my goal as I am aware its temporary, but I guess, 'they care about me to not yell at me anymore I have to deal with being placed somewhere else now', yet I am still reminded that this place I am forced to be in is good by one person and another bad and by another helped them... yet all different experiences aren't the same, because I sort of had a better time with someone who helped me feel great about cooking some breakfast from all the times I delt with people's damn assumptions about me that he actually gave me a chance and made up for his mistakes days ago, even though he talked about my insecurities — because he doesn't know I hate being a girl in this world where it's hell for me to care for myself as a young woman, especially as I felt fear from being on my period years ago and being mentally tarnished by trauma, while others can not do that and are so insufferable to be around... it's like it wants us to go crazy, and
