This will be my last week of life

[PabloV320]

The truth is that I have wasted many opportunities in my life.
I will tell you my story, I am someone short (5'4) and when I was a baby I suffered from Hydrocephalus, at that time I survived, but I have a very large head (64 cm, XXL in a motorcycle helmet)
My only friends and partners that I talk the most have been online, do you understand? Online, nothing in Fisico, nobody comes close to me or they don't join me.
My parents consider me useless, if I am, I have low self-esteem because I have suffered bullying in elementary school, high school, high school and right now in college (my complex is very notorious).
In the jobs they have discriminated against me, they even try to put me in jobs that are as less visual as possible to the public.
I am locked up all day, I hate being like this, but when I go to school or places where there are normal people they treat me differently, I have even seen that they have taken photos of me.

The truth is I hate my life and I want to commit suicide, what are the methods with the least pain or the fastest possible?

I have been to many psychologists, psychiatrists and although they have helped me individually, in society it is something completely different, it is quite a different treatment.
I do not know what exists after death, if there is life or something related, I would like to be normal like the others, where they do not treat you as if you were some "Phenomenon", in truth for me life is beautiful, all my friends are successful and I am being a failure through these complex and bad times that I have gone through.
Anyway, what will happen if I die? Nothing really, life goes on, I know that my family and friends will forget me to get ahead with their life projects, death is something that we are all going to go through, only some before others.
The truth is not worth living like this, suffering criticism every day and everything, no more ...

 

[lucky]

for me life is beautiful

Having this view while simultaneously being crippled by depression, at the verge of suicide even, is beyond awful. I feel similar, the world appears beautiful to me too -- but I don't feel able to participate in it.

Sorry, I don't have any solutions for you, just very empathetic towards your situation.

 

[cooldude420]

what u study? why not be best in world with that?

u in school. so u young. many people wish they young like u.

there many way to live life. i think u can find path that be good for you. i have hope 4 u

 

[motel rooms]

what u study? why not be best in world with that?
u in school. so u young. many people wish they young like u.

OP is pouring his heart out. Don't be obnoxious...

 

[toforigivelife]

The truth is that I have wasted many opportunities in my life.
I will tell you my story, I am someone short (5'4) and when I was a baby I suffered from Hydrocephalus, at that time I survived, but I have a very large head (64 cm, XXL in a motorcycle helmet)
My only friends and partners that I talk the most have been online, do you understand? Online, nothing in Fisico, nobody comes close to me or they don't join me.
My parents consider me useless, if I am, I have low self-esteem because I have suffered bullying in elementary school, high school, high school and right now in college (my complex is very notorious).
In the jobs they have discriminated against me, they even try to put me in jobs that are as less visual as possible to the public.
I am locked up all day, I hate being like this, but when I go to school or places where there are normal people they treat me differently, I have even seen that they have taken photos of me.

The truth is I hate my life and I want to commit suicide, what are the methods with the least pain or the fastest possible?

I have been to many psychologists, psychiatrists and although they have helped me individually, in society it is something completely different, it is quite a different treatment.
I do not know what exists after death, if there is life or something related, I would like to be normal like the others, where they do not treat you as if you were some "Phenomenon", in truth for me life is beautiful, all my friends are successful and I am being a failure through these complex and bad times that I have gone through.
Anyway, what will happen if I die? Nothing really, life goes on, I know that my family and friends will forget me to get ahead with their life projects, death is something that we are all going to go through, only some before others.
The truth is not worth living like this, suffering criticism every day and everything, no more ...

Words cannot express how sorry I am for the suffering that you have endured.

To suffer the agony and anguish of being bullied, abused and rejected by those outside of your home and your family and then to be abused, bullied and rejected by your family at the same time is the perfect recipe for people to fall into an indescribable despair and want to end their lives.

I don't want you to end your life but based on what you have gone through your entire life I do not blame you for being in a suicidal despair.

Ultimately the choice is yours whether or not to end your life, it is your right to determine your own quality of life and, for what it's worth, I respect whatever decision you make and wish you peace and blessings whether you decide to remain in this life or to leave it.

As far as advising you on what suicide method you should use you have to understand that a lot of people on Sanctioned Suicide are very suspicious of new members who ask these kinds of questions because there are those who would like to see forums like this one shut down and removed from the Internet.

The most obvious methods would be using a firearm or jumping from a great height. Both methods would quickly end your life but you'd have to be able to acquire a firearm or find the courage to jump from a great height. It would be difficult to find the courage to do that.

You can research how to use the dark markets, or find a local drug connection, research what types of drugs are the most lethal, how they interact with alcohol, and research cryptocurrencies like Bitcoin.

You can research a substance called Sodium Nitrite (Nitrite, not Nitrate, Nitrite) and search Sanctioned Suicide for threads on Sodium Nitrite, or SN, as it is referred to on Sanctioned Suicide, for more information.

As far as your fears regarding the afterlife; those who have been close to death and those who say that they have psychic medium abilities have all said that those who die by suicide are not judged, sent to hell or receive any kind of special punishment because ended their lives. According to these individuals, those who die by suicide are loved and received on the other side and their deaths are not treated any differently.

And then there are those who believe that there is no afterlife and that we all go into a dark, eternal, dreamless sleep.

Either way, you have nothing to fear.

You've been through a lot of pain and face painful challenges on a daily basis.

I'm so sorry for the situation that you are in, I'm so sorry that you have been driven to suicide and I wish there was something that I could do to help you.

Regardless of what decision you make I hope that you can find kind, intelligent, compassionate people who will help you with your painful journey and guide you to the decision that is best for you, whether that means staying in this life or opting to leave it.

Wishing you peace, compassion and blessings my friend. You certainly deserve to have those gentle and kind elements in your life.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that things are so hopeless. Life is just so cruel and unfair. I strongly believe there is nothing after death, just like before we were born. That thought gives me a lot of comfort personally. I understand it is hard to carry on when you are suffering. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[Crazy4u]

It is not about you. It is about them. People can be POS
Don't let them make you feel down.

 

[PabloV320]

Words cannot express how sorry I am for the suffering that you have endured.

To suffer the agony and anguish of being bullied, abused and rejected by those outside of your home and your family and then to be abused, bullied and rejected by your family at the same time is the perfect recipe for people to fall into an indescribable despair and want to end their lives.

I don't want you to end your life but based on what you have gone through your entire life I do not blame you for being in a suicidal despair.

Ultimately the choice is yours whether or not to end your life, it is your right to determine your own quality of life and, for what it's worth, I respect whatever decision you make and wish you peace and blessings whether you decide to remain in this life or to leave it.

As far as advising you on what suicide method you should use you have to understand that a lot of people on Sanctioned Suicide are very suspicious of new members who ask these kinds of questions because there are those who would like to see forums like this one shut down and removed from the Internet.

The most obvious methods would be using a firearm or jumping from a great height. Both methods would quickly end your life but you'd have to be able to acquire a firearm or find the courage to jump from a great height. It would be difficult to find the courage to do that.

You can research how to use the dark markets, or find a local drug connection, research what types of drugs are the most lethal, how they interact with alcohol, and research cryptocurrencies like Bitcoin.

You can research a substance called Sodium Nitrite (Nitrite, not Nitrate, Nitrite) and search Sanctioned Suicide for threads on Sodium Nitrite, or SN, as it is referred to on Sanctioned Suicide, for more information.

As far as your fears regarding the afterlife; those who have been close to death and those who say that they have psychic medium abilities have all said that those who die by suicide are not judged, sent to hell or receive any kind of special punishment because ended their lives. According to these individuals, those who die by suicide are loved and received on the other side and their deaths are not treated any differently.

And then there are those who believe that there is no afterlife and that we all go into a dark, eternal, dreamless sleep.

Either way, you have nothing to fear.

Ha pasado por mucho dolor y enfrenta desafíos dolorosos a diario.

Lamento mucho la situación en la que se encuentra, lamento mucho que lo hayan llevado al suicidio y desearía poder hacer algo para ayudarlo.

Independientemente de la decisión que tome, espero que pueda encontrar personas amables, inteligentes y compasivas que lo ayudarán con su doloroso viaje y lo guiarán hacia la decisión que sea mejor para usted, ya sea que eso signifique quedarse en esta vida u optar por dejarla. .

Te deseo paz, compasión y bendiciones amigo mío. Ciertamente mereces tener esos elementos gentiles y amables en tu vida.

Hola, está será mi último fin de semana, ¿Te parece si hablamos?