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tiredxillenial
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- Jul 19, 2020
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Have not been able to connect to SS for a long ass time. Thought the site was taken down. So glad it's not. This site is what has kept me going the most actually
Anyhow this weekend (Sunday or Monday, which is a federal holiday in the States) is the day. I have access to peaceful means and have truly exhausted all possible treatment options. Known this is what it is for a few days and feel calm and relaxed. Not depressed. Have good energy actually.
Wrote first "fuck you" killed self email for autosend after the fact earlier today. Gonna do a goddamn fucking press release as suicide note tomorrow and set it for auto send Monday pm. Calling the un healthcare system out for neglect and abuse. Same with a Facebook post to friends and few other assorted messages- writing and setting up autosends that is.
Really really glad to have some resolution and a clear plan. Tired. Want to tonight but holding off for those other posts.
Just wanted to share. This feels really really attainable to me and that is what is best for me and I feel very at peace with it.
Anyhow this weekend (Sunday or Monday, which is a federal holiday in the States) is the day. I have access to peaceful means and have truly exhausted all possible treatment options. Known this is what it is for a few days and feel calm and relaxed. Not depressed. Have good energy actually.
Wrote first "fuck you" killed self email for autosend after the fact earlier today. Gonna do a goddamn fucking press release as suicide note tomorrow and set it for auto send Monday pm. Calling the un healthcare system out for neglect and abuse. Same with a Facebook post to friends and few other assorted messages- writing and setting up autosends that is.
Really really glad to have some resolution and a clear plan. Tired. Want to tonight but holding off for those other posts.
Just wanted to share. This feels really really attainable to me and that is what is best for me and I feel very at peace with it.