This site is addicting and it terrifies me. Anyone else?

[Starry✧･ﾟDaze]

Initially I registered to SaSu, because I'm so incredibly tired of everything and just wanted to find a peaceful way to ctb. Maybe chat with some people, hear their stories.

Never would I've expected to recieve so much compassion, love and understanding. There are so many kind and intelligent posts on this site, the users feel so real.

At the same time it's terrifying to me, because I'm not used to be seen or heard or to open up so much and my tired, lonely mind is getting addicted to the feeling.
I don't want to get used to this and it's so weird that I feel this way. Maybe I should take a step back Idk.

Does anyone else experience this?

 

[winamp]

yes absolutely, when I registered I was terrified and afraid of joining or the users and I was surprised that I got in

now I am on here almost everyday for many hours or I check every once in a while if I am busy
I feel like I should take a step back as well but I know that I would either get bored or have bad thoughts again and would relapse

the site helps me a lot since there aren't any SH forums and it distracts me from thinking about it sometimes

also I think not having any friends irl or online is a big reason as to why I am addicted to the site/forum
everyone here to me or at least the people I've interacted with or observed are honest and nice and I like hearing their stories as well and learning more about them

and I find this site to be better alternative to those so called mental health apps I feel seen and understood here instead of isolated in my thoughts and experiences and being forced to only look at and talk about the positive all the time

 

[sammiechzxv]

Haven't been on here for that long but from what I've seen I definitely agree

 

[doneforlife]

yes absolutely, when I registered I was terrified and afraid of joining or the users and I was surprised that I got in

now I am on here almost everyday for many hours or I check every once in a while if I am busy
I feel like I should take a step back as well but I know that I would either get bored or have bad thoughts again and would relapse

the site helps me a lot since there aren't any SH forums and it distracts me from thinking about it sometimes

also I think not having any friends irl or online is a big reason as to why I am addicted to the site/forum
everyone here to me or at least the people I've interacted with or observed are honest and nice and I like hearing their stories as well and learning more about them

and I find this site to be better alternative to those so called mental health apps I feel seen and understood here instead of isolated in my thoughts and experiences and being forced to only look at and talk about the positive all the time

I recently joined this site and I am not posting much. Just reading. I have not explored the site in totality as well. But it's a mixed emotion for me. Knowing that others are suffering isn't making me happy. But I have stopped communicating irl. I somehow find peace here. I am little worried though as I am not sure what the laws are in my country and is it illegal as per those laws to be a member of the site.

 

[.seethroughme.]

I get a lot of relief from being here, so I'm spending a lot of time browsing. Seeing that other people are feeling the same way kind of helps me keep my brain from spiralling.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm glad I found SaSu and actually it keeps me alive! In my opinion there's nothing to be terrified about here, it's a great community!

 

[CW36]

Yes, how ironic, the suicide site that the world tried to suppress and shut down is actually saving some lives.

 

[ablationaaa457]

For me, it's literally the first time in my life where I can actually discuss these matters without instantly being shut down. I know that if I were to even try to discuss these subjects in the abstract any discourse would be heavily sanitized, if allowed at all. It is understandable, as death in general is a very heavy subject, but it does make this site relatively unique.

 

[aitouka]

Though I can't use this site often due to in real life issues, I completely understand what you mean. It feels like a place where I can express my deepest troubles, which I can't even tell my closest friends, fearing they will see me different. And most of my thoughts are pieces which are incoherent anyways, which is impossible to convey to my friends, and I feel like I can go crazy here. Allowing me to be myself and be crazy gives me comfort, and the fact that people here don't judge, whether on topics like SH or CTB. I love you Sasu <3

 

[Starry✧･ﾟDaze]

I'm so relieved that others experience the same. Really feared I'm being weird for feeling like this.

Of course I feel sad for everyone that is lonely and has no other place where they are heard, too. But at least we can find likeminded people here and are somehow not completely alone.

It's a shame some people try to shut down this site for good.

 

[Fktw0rld]

Nah. Who else you gonna talk to about it without being told, "stop talking like that" when you reach out for help, guidance or someone who can relate? I don't consider it addicting. I consider it helpful and I'm thankful this community exists.

 

[Peerless_Cucumber]

I thought I was going insane because everyone around me is pro life. Even my Ex who is also suicidal. When I was in the psychiatry after an attempt it seemed like there were two sides of people there. Those who were actively suicidal and wanting to ctb and those who were pro life and just admitted themselves. Not because they actually wanted to ctb but because they thought they'd get help that way or Idk. I honestly don't know why they were there in the first place. I never could connect with these people.

I was on the suicide subreddit before joining but there is so much pro life stuff going on there that I just can't relate to. If life was really that great I wouldn't be suicidal in the first place. I mean c'mon. Haven't been active on there at all since joining here. I could not relate to members on there at all. Whereas here I actually can relate to a lot of the posts. Also I can actually say what I want to say without it getting censored because it's not pro life.


I think that's why the platform is so addicting. It's the only social media platform about suicide where you can actually say your opinion without getting silenced. Also the only platform where you can find people who agree with you and not have to read some "life is amazing" bs.

 

[doneforlife]

I'm glad I found SaSu and actually it keeps me alive! In my opinion there's nothing to be terrified about here, it's a great community!

This. After a day's work, I just scroll through this site simultaneously falling asleep. It's like my sleeping pill.

 

[𖣂𖣂𖣂.]

Honestly this site has helped me cope better than anything else