This site gives me a lot of comfort

[LostGirl]

This is more or less the only website I visit these days. Since registering a few days ago, I managed to chat with many kind-hearted members without being judged or ridiculed. I am getting really comfortable here and thank you to the admins/ mods who worked round the clock to keep this site up and running. The only worry I have is if I get too comfortable here, I might not follow through with my plans. Ultimately, I hope to only use this site as a small stopover before the finish line.

 

[Lefty]

I also lurked on this site a bit before I joined. I have to say I like how this forum is. I do appericate how nice the people are on here.

 

[15dec]

Honestly couldn't agree more. Trying to find a place with practical advice and people who understand was next to impossible for me and it's nice to finally have a place to go that offers real support without a guilt trip

 

[Kingkelly]

This is more or less the only website I visit these days. Since registering a few days ago, I managed to chat with many kind-hearted members without being judged or ridiculed. I am getting really comfortable here and thank you to the admins/ mods who worked round the clock to keep this site up and running. The only worry I have is if I get too comfortable here, I might not follow through with my plans. Ultimately, I hope to only use this site as a small stopover before the finish line.

I agree... It is comforting here. No judgments either way. I have gotten so much information from this site I wish I knew months ago.I could a ready have been fine by now. Funny I just found the empty bottle of pills I took trying to od. It didnt do anything now I know what will do it for reals not messing around lol

 

[explorer]

This site is the best no other site gives such info! Thanks to admins! but difficult to find partners here

 

[LostGirl]

This site is the best no other site gives such info! Thanks to admins! but difficult to find partners here

I originally came to find N and a partner. Failed on both fronts but succeeded in finding a sanctuary:)

 

[explorer]

And fi

I originally came to find N and a partner. Failed on both fronts but succeeded in finding a sanctuary:)

And finally did u change your mind on ctb?

 

[LostGirl]

And fi

And finally did u change your mind on ctb?

Sadly ,no. I am still working towards it albeit via a less reliable method in SN. I don't mind a bit of pain, I just hope it gets the job done and I manage to fall unconscious within the hour.

 

[Watson]

I know what you mean.

This is the first forum I've been able to participate in and express my thoughts freely without having to censor myself.

Anywhere else, I would write a reply/new post and end up having an anxiety attack and would ultimately delete whatever it was.
It's crazy how 'in my head' I feel all the time and the few times I feel calm, I'm on this forum.

I'm thankful for such kind and open minded people but I'm totally afraid of getting comfortable as well.
Researching and all the advice I've read methods is aways a nice reminder that everything, until death, is all temporary.

 

[YukiFox]

I´m glad that you find inner comfort here. I was too relieved since I´ve found this website, and hope you find the right path on your heart.
Hugs!

 

[YukiFox]

I´m glad that you find inner comfort here. I was too relieved since I´ve found this website, and hope you find the right path on your heart.
Hugs!

 

[Jiva]

This is more or less the only website I visit these days. Since registering a few days ago, I managed to chat with many kind-hearted members without being judged or ridiculed. I am getting really comfortable here and thank you to the admins/ mods who worked round the clock to keep this site up and running. The only worry I have is if I get too comfortable here, I might not follow through with my plans. Ultimately, I hope to only use this site as a small stopover before the finish line.

Exactly. I can´t say it more better. Thanks everybody here.

 

[Johnnythefox]

I originally came to find N and a partner. Failed on both fronts but succeeded in finding a sanctuary:)

I think N can be obtained in some Asian countries, Thailand, Vietnam maybe China. There should be info on here somewhere.

 

[gingerplum]

I originally came to find N and a partner. Failed on both fronts but succeeded in finding a sanctuary:)

It really is a sanctuary, isn't it? Perfect description.

 

[TAW122]

I derive a lot of comfort here too, and also this is one of the few places where I am able to talk about the right to die, suicide, and death openly without judgment, pro-life spiel, or being censored.

 

[LostGirl]

I think N can be obtained in some Asian countries, Thailand, Vietnam maybe China. There should be info on here somewhere.

Thanks but I have searched the forum but couldn't find anything in relation to getting N in Asia.

 

[Johnnythefox]

Thanks but I have searched the forum but couldn't find anything in relation to getting N in Asia.

Have you looked in the PPeH, it's available as a download in the resource section. I downloaded earlier, I'll have another look in it.

 

[LostGirl]

Have you looked in the PPeH, it's available as a download in the resource section. I downloaded earlier, I'll have another look in it.

Yes, I have read the Oct edition. It only mentioned someone managing to get it in Thailand many years ago. There has been no update since.

 

[Johnnythefox]

Yes, I have read the Oct edition. It only mentioned someone managing to get it in Thailand many years ago. There has been no update since.

Yeah sorry, I just checked. My mistake..

 

[Xerxes]

Barbiturates are regulated in Thailand and Vietnam. It used to be widely available. I read on a Cambodia Expat Forum about the availability of Nembutal in small village vet shops. Along with other drugs you can possibly obtain in Cambodia. Laos heavily regulates Nembutal.

 

[LostGirl]

Yeah sorry, I just checked. My mistake..

No need to apologize, you were only trying to help and I appreciate your kindness:)

 

[LostGirl]

Barbiturates are regulated in Thailand and Vietnam. It used to be widely available. I read on a Cambodia Expat Forum about the availability of Nembutal in small village vet shops. Along with other drugs you can possibly obtain in Cambodia. Laos heavily regulates Nembutal.

Sounds promising, do you mind sharing the link to the said site? Thank you.

 

[Sinbad]

Try the Philippines. Only the gigantic Pacific is in between those two countries.
Step one: choose a hotel in Manila. Afterwards, buy the N from A while providing the adress of the hotel. After 2 to 3 weeks check-in to that hotel (You can get a visa on arrival,easy)
Once there, plan on staying there until you get your package. :)
Yes, it is risky but considering your situation it's probably your best shot at getting N.
Good luck.

 

[LostGirl]

Try the Philippines. Only the gigantic Pacific is in between those two countries.
Step one: choose a hotel in Manila. Afterwards, buy the N from A while providing the adress of the hotel. After 2 to 3 weeks check-in to that hotel (You can get a visa on arrival,easy)
Once there, plan on staying there until you get your package. :)
Yes, it is risky but considering your situation it's probably your best shot at getting N.
Good luck.

Thanks for the suggestion but why the Philippines? Duterte is cracking down hard on drugs and the city of Manila is not really safe. I would rather go to California where I hear some people are getting their shipment within 7 days of payment.

 

[Sinbad]

Yeah definitely go for Cali, if you got a US visa. Or if you can get one easily.

I might take the same road myself.