Story This should be goodbye

[Centerism]

Ok, I just took 200 corocidin cough and cold. This will be my second attempt using this method. I survived last time because I was found by my boyfriends sister. I was in a coma for 3 days and in the icu for 9 days. This is not a goodbye letter. It's simply my way of saying thank you. I want everyone here to know how wonderful you are. It's amazing how beautiful people are on this site. I think pro-lifers could take a lesson on how to be gentle with others from the people who are actually suicidal. The love I've found here is wonderful. I could have never l imagined I would find love like this, anywhere. You guys are such a great contribution to humanity. However short lived you may be. Thank you for being you. You guys have made my life a whole lot more tolerable. Thank you.

I will keep everyone updated on how I feel. If I don't pass out. And I'll be online until I can't function anymore. Please feel free to message me.

I Love you, all of you, every one of you. You're amazing, and beautiful in every way.

 

[Blackjack]

I'm here as long as you can/want to chat tonite. I wish you peace & love on your journey. You are brave.

 

[Centerism]

@Blackjack
Thank you.

 

[cryptic_cynic]

I wish you long awaited peace.

 

[Ssrejisser]

Are you not going with a partner anymore? You wrote in another thread.

 

[Centerism]

I honestly don't think this will work. It was just an act of compulsion. So no partner this time. I would really have liked to go out with a partner. But, I'm selfish and needy. So in going to do my own thing I guess.
I'm starting to feel a little out of it. Almost drunk. Hopefully I pass out soon.

 

[Centerism]

Ok, I'm feeling really messed up. Totally out of it. I don't know how I'm typing this. But it shouldn't be long now.

 

[Blackjack]

Ok, I'm feeling really messed up. Totally out of it. I don't know how I'm typing this. But it shouldn't be long now.

Holding you close in thought. Wishing you peace.

 

[wanttodie]

Wishing you peace

 

[Worndown]

Have a good journey.

 

[Stan]

wishing you peace and tranquillity

 

[okaoki]

i wish you safe and peace travel

 

[ArtsyDrawer]

May you have peace in your travel

 

[BPD_LE]

Anyone heard from @Centerism since this? ❤

 

[Blackjack]

Anyone heard from @Centerism since this? ❤

We were chatting until he went quiet at around 11:15pm CST. I've been up all night thinking about him, hoping he's at peace wherever he is.

 

[Rachel74]

Hes not been online since 5.15 AM

 

[RedAlert]

We were chatting until he went quiet at around 11:15pm CST. I've been up all night thinking about him, hoping he's at peace wherever he is.

I don't think you can pass away from 200 corocidin cough and cold if you are young and have a good heart.

I'm surprised he/she was able to type in coherent messages an hour after drinking that stuff.

 

[Blackjack]

I don't think you can pass away from 200 corocidin cough and cold if you are young and have a good heart.

I'm surprised he/she was able to type in coherent messages an hour after drinking that stuff.

That wasn't all he took.

 

[SheJumped]

Hope you have a peaceful journey.

 

[gingerplum]

That wasn't all he took.

What else was taken?

 

[Blackjack]

What else was taken?

He rambled off some other stuff but I don't remember specifics.

Hes not been online since 5.15 AM

His profile says he hasn't been seen since 11:15pm, where did you see 5:15am?

 

[Dutch]

He made some attention threads before, so pretty sure he will login again.

 

[BPD_LE]

He rambled off some other stuff but I don't remember specifics.


His profile says he hasn't been seen since 11:15pm, where did you see 5:15am?

Different time zones. 5.15am GMT

 

[Blackjack]

Different time zones. 5.15am GMT

OK that's 11:15pm in Chicago/CST.

He made some attention threads before, so pretty sure he will login again.

I guess we'll see. He seemed to be on a mission, albeit an impulsive one.

 

[kohaku]

He made some attention threads before, so pretty sure he will login again.

Oh fuck off with that "attention" shit. We're all depressed here, in one way or another. What makes you think someone in this situation wouldn't want sympathy? Do you think this is intentional manipulation of sorts? You sit here but you have the mind of a judgmental neurotypical. Who cares if someone wants attention? These gestures are genuine regardless.

 

[Centerism]

Update,
I just woke up. I feel like complete shit. I can barely function. I'm not seeking attention or sympathy. I've been in a really dark place this past week and I acted impulsively last night. All I remember is trying to get to the bathroom, but I didn't make it. I fell over and puked all over the floor. My roommate said he found me passed out next to my bed on the floor. He called a couple of my friends and the took care of me until I just woke up. There is puke everywhere.

I just want everybody here to know something about me. I'm a loving, caring person. I consider this site to be a savior of sorts. I don't mean any harm. I'm sorry if I've been comming off as rough. My birthday was a week ago and that was my original date to ctb. Instead I just drank myself into oblivion and did some crazy shit by impulse. It was not my brightest moment.

Each and every one of you are beautiful people. Always remember I love you. With all of my heart.

Thanks for being here.

I'll be around for a while so if anybody wants to talk feel free to message me.

 

[Worndown]

I am sorry this happened.
I hope you recover soon.

 

[Squiddy]

I hope you feel better soon

 

[woxihuanni]

Oh fuck off with that "attention" shit. We're all depressed here, in one way or another. What makes you think someone in this situation wouldn't want sympathy? Do you think this is intentional manipulation of sorts? You sit here but you have the mind of a judgmental neurotypical. Who cares if someone wants attention? These gestures are genuine regardless.

Yeah, it is sad how much contempt people have for someone badly off that they will seek attention in terrible ways. I cannot see myself doing it because not being entitled to anything has been drilled into me from the womb, but those who can bring themselves to do it, good for them. Scream any way you like. As if they had the means to have attention by finding the cure to cancer or whatever the fuck.

 

[Rachel74]

Yeah, it is sad how much contempt people have for someone badly off that they will seek attention in terrible ways. I cannot see myself doing it because not being entitled to anything has been drilled into me from the womb, but those who can bring themselves to do it, good for them. Scream any way you like. As if they had the means to have attention by finding the cure to cancer or whatever the fuck.

That's because you have compassion