This place hurts like hell but death is so unfathomable

[GravityUtilizer]

Rock and a hard place springs to mind? I dunno. Just thinking out loud.

 

[StuFin]

It's taking that final step isn't it. I had the weighing scales out last night to measure water and SN but just wasn't feeling it enough. Doubts started creeping in so I just went to bed.

Then woke up this morning really disappointed with myself.

 

[GravityUtilizer]

How can one ever hope to fathom the unfathomable nature of death? Why does one even try? I'm just going round in circles today.

Maybe @StuFin's weighing scales are an apt metaphor for choosing between the devil you know and the one you don't.

 

[mahakaliSS_MahaDurga]

It's taking that final step isn't it. I had the weighing scales out last night to measure water and SN but just wasn't feeling it enough. Doubts started creeping in so I just went to bed.

Then woke up this morning really disappointed with myself.

I have my two glasses and a measuring cup sitting on the table for weeks.

 

[Deleted member 17949]

at this point death seems more and more appealing so hopefully I eventually just dive into that train

 

[sadworld]

Existence is just a fucking nightmare and I really wanna escape it

 

[Time to fly]

Reality used to be a friend of mine, now ctb is that friend...jump high and fly....

 

[Meditation guide]

How can one ever hope to fathom the unfathomable nature of death? Why does one even try? I'm just going round in circles today.

It's a great mystery we can never know without the experience of it. Obviously we are no more than the ground beef I buy and eat. Aside from that is there anything else? We are all about to find out some day.

What freaked me out was seeing an Xray of my head with the eyeballs on their stalks= was that really me? Not sure how to explain it but... we are not what we think we are.

 

[Lastsauce]

I can't comprehend non-existence. I yearn to cease existing, yet I'm terrified of oblivion. Stupid evolutionary traits keeping innocent people alive!

 

[Meditation guide]

What gets me, is the voices from beyond, that answer questions sometimes. Spirit boxes and other such items.
I have had some experiences that left no doubt there is something, or people, very real and alive in some form that is invisible, dead people supposedly. One said it knew it (or he maybe I should say) and clearly answered "yes" when asked if he knew he was dead.

 

[GravityUtilizer]

It's funny cos I wrote that three days ago and now I could give a shit. The kind of depressed mood that will get me closer to ctb. Take me, oblivion!

 

[woxihuanni]

Luckily it is my husband who decides when my life ends, so no philosophical conundrum for me. Only to get on with it.

 

[Meditation guide]

Take me, oblivion!

You HOPE it's oblivion. Not at all sure it is.