this place can be so interesting

[nosurpries]

sonder: (uncountable) (neologism) "The profound feeling of realizing that everyone, including strangers passing in the street, has a life as complex as one's own, which they are constantly living despite one's personal lack of awareness of it."

being on this website can feel like an echochamber of pain and suffering sometimes. the experiences i see people share on here are really heartbreaking and difficult, it's also relateable a lot of the time, but very sad. but also while i'm browsing, i'll see post of people who reside in so many different countries, people who are young, people who are old, people who have experienced so many different things.

it just makes me think about how suicidal people really are everywhere around us. i wish it wasn't so stigmatized, i wish that i could talk about how i feel irl with others who actually understand. i want to be able to express myself freely to another person without fear of judgement, let alone imprisonment. i just feel like there are a lot of people who also struggle like i do but we can't talk about it irl. so many people like me who get up and go to work/school everyday and talk to people and suffer day in and day out and log on to here when they are sure they are alone to be able to have just a little bit of community and understanding. because god forbid that you feel like you shouldn't be forced to be alive, how am i sick for thinking that?

anyways i just was thinking about how i find it so interesting how diverse this user base is.

 

[MetroTransit]

There is a certain truth to the notion that "suffering is the spice of life" I think. Sometimes there is too little and it doesn't build character sometimes it is too much and crushes the spirit. Some of the most interesting people I have met have suffered immensely throughput their lives.


I think depression is definitely more common that some might think. Whether the spirals to suicide ideation who knows. The way the world works is soul destroying. Unfortunately suicide is just taboo because it makes people face their own mortality I believe. I do think people sometimes think about it but it is not evaluated as a serious option. It is also very common for people especially women to be on antidepressants.

 

[FuneralCry]

I do agree that suicide shouldn't be so stigmatised, in an ideal world there would be no need for suicide forums, we would be able to openly talk about our wishes to leave this world and then others would accept our decision, with us being able to just exit peacefully without all of the secrecy and complicated suicide research. It's unfair how we live in a world where suicide is so difficult. Existence is so objectively horrifying with unlimited potential for suffering and after all, we will all die eventually someday so I see it as better to exit at a time of my own choosing rather than it being out of my control.

 

[anxiety cat]

I feel like this is the only place where people like us are accepted. I know if I shared how I'm really feeling with anyone in my life, I would be put on a pysch hold and shamed for having these thoughts. I'm so thankful for this site.

 

[MetroTransit]

I feel like this is the only place where people like us are accepted. I know if I shared how I'm really feeling with anyone in my life, I would be put on a pysch hold and shamed for having these thoughts. I'm so thankful for this site.

When people in my life found out I tried to kill myself they never treated me the same. Thankfully I didn't come close to having to endure a psych ward stay.

 

[anxiety cat]

When people in my life found out I tried to kill myself they never treated me the same. Thankfully I didn't come close to having to endure a psych ward stay.

How did they treat you differently? Just curious.

A lot of my family just stopped talking to me for being depressed

 

[MetroTransit]

They just grew more distant and avoided most interactions and talking with me.

 

[ge0rge]

They just grew more distant and avoided most interactions and talking with me.

this happened to me as well. i m glad they weeded themselves out of my life though

 

[y'ffre]

I want to talk about that freely everywhere. When I was hospitalized I tried lots of meds and even ETC. Nothing worked and I am flirting with death etc. But, I can't talk sadly. I feel like a villain like a psychopath like the Joker of Batman when I talk about being so close to death and being hospitalized. This is absolutely ridiculous but I think they also would feel the same and most of the people around will avoid me because of that eventually if I chose to talk.

At least my family supported me they accepted me and appreciated my efforts for healing.