This pic hit me hard.

[StillBreathing]

This hit me hard. When you are ready to give up, why not do something you never imagined yourself doing. As for me I am traveling away for a weeks. Will it cure my depression? Most likely not, but it is worth a shot, and what is 2 weeks when I have my entire life deciding whether I should end it early or not.
And for anyone thinking I am entitled, I am not. I sold most of my posessions in order for this to happen.

 

[Hardcore_Henry]

Damn.

Kind of reminds me of this:

 

[Sleeper System]

Did you sell a kidney? Tell me. I must know. O_O jk you don't have to.

 

[Achromatix]

I feel like this somehow gave me a bit of hope, thank you for sharing!

 

[Rockman]

I think it's a fantastic thing for the recovery section.

 

[FuneralCry]

I don't understand it when people say life is short, I'm in my 20's and it terrifies me how this existence could potentially continue for decades, it's terrifying how a human can potentially exist for so long. I just don't have any interest in decaying from age where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer, such a thing is just so futile and undesirable to me, I'd prefer to permanently not exist no matter the circumstances.

 

[thewalkingdread]

I think it's a fantastic thing for the recovery section.

I do so too.

I'm very sorry for what I'm about to say OP...

I think it's quite nice that you feel like wanting to give life a "Second shot". I can certainly be empathetic about you trying to make life better for yourself, to try stop suffering.

But to me this kind of message is nothing more than pure pro-life propaganda. And it's, as usual, quite invalidating, condescending and ignorant. This section of the site is not a "self-help" one.

PS: to people who don't understand why I say that suicidal pro-life rethoric is disguised in this forum, this thread is a good example.

 

[StillBreathing]

I do so too.

I'm very sorry for what I'm about to say OP...

I think it's quite nice that you feel like wanting to give life a "Second shot". I can certainly be empathetic about you trying to make life better for yourself, to try stop suffering.

But to me this kind of message is nothing more than pure pro-life propaganda. And it's, as usual, quite invalidating, condescending and ignorant. This section of the site is not a "self-help" one.

PS: to people who don't understand why I say that suicidal pro-life rethoric is disguised in this forum, this thread is a good example.

I understand what you mean. this post was in no way meant to promote "pro-life propaganda". It was more like, enjoy yourself on your last time on earth. And if you like it, maybe you will do it again. I did not post this to prevent suicide, I believe suicide is a choice we all have to make for ourselves and rightfully so.

 

[Morte]

Life is not short, 27 years of pure agony seem like an eternity. I didn't even need a day of this. Idc how short that feels for everyone else, I just want to disappear.
Besides, this stuff is for recovery section, not here.

 

[Life_and_Death]

And it's, as usual, quite invalidating, condescending and ignorant.

^ not everyone can just get up and do things

my ana is to the extent im bed ridden 95% of the day trying to conserve the energy from the minimal amount of food i can eat
im living with an abuser i cant escape from due to lack of money and family and calling the cops is only going to make my problem worse. its going to give me no place to live because getting rid of the abuser doesnt magically give me another place to stay.

because of these 2 things i cant do a single thing that i want and both are out of my control.
its invalidating to tell me "to just...." because i cant, i have very minimal control over my life right now

 

[alwayssearching202]

I understand what you mean. this post was in no way meant to promote "pro-life propaganda". It was more like, enjoy yourself on your last time on earth. And if you like it, maybe you will do it again. I did not post this to prevent suicide, I believe suicide is a choice we all have to make for ourselves and rightfully so.

I didn't take this as pro life propaganda at all. I appreciate you sharing. The photo resonated with me. I've spent so much of my life living for others I decided to focus only on me during my last few weeks. I'm quitting my job tomorrow and will do some traveling. It will not change my timing or plan, it will just ensure when I CTB it will be on my terms and not stressed about a corporate job. I am older than many on the site and have worked since I was 15. I plan to fund my last few months with my retirement account since I will not be needing it.

 

[nopointinlivingg]

^ not everyone can just get up and do things

my ana is to the extent im bed ridden 95% of the day trying to conserve the energy from the minimal amount of food i can eat
im living with an abuser i cant escape from due to lack of money and family and calling the cops is only going to make my problem worse. its going to give me no place to live because getting rid of the abuser doesnt magically give me another place to stay.

because of these 2 things i cant do a single thing that i want and both are out of my control.
its invalidating to tell me "to just...." because i cant, i have very minimal control over my life right now

Without going into too much detail I briefly worked a human services job that dealt with victims of domestic violence, particularly women and children. The amount of effort they and we had to put in simply to change their situations into something slightly less shitty was astronomical. I can say with absolutely certainty there is no "just" for these people, or even for people with the means to attempt to help them. I have to refrain from literally spitting in people's faces when they try to feed me this garbage.

I'm really, really sorry this is your situation. I wish I could give you a simple escape route.

 

[Slow_Farewell]

I didn't take this as pro life propaganda at all. I appreciate you sharing. The photo resonated with me. I've spent so much of my life living for others I decided to focus only on me during my last few weeks. I'm quitting my job tomorrow and will do some traveling. It will not change my timing or plan, it will just ensure when I CTB it will be on my terms and not stressed about a corporate job. I am older than many on the site and have worked since I was 15. I plan to fund my last few months with my retirement account since I will not be needing it.

Same. Feeling this is part of OP's journey and so is figuring out if CTB is for the OP or not. Good for the OP, and if it works out then there can be a follow up post in Recovery, possibly.

I'd like to say "if you're ever in the PH in Asia let me know" but i'm broke so most I can do is give suggestions on where to go and what to do depending on the budget.

 

[PaunPaun]

I have a very similar philosophy that this , nothing matter in life so you can do basically anything if you have the will

 

[IWishToDie]

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This hit me hard. When you are ready to give up, why not do something you never imagined yourself doing. As for me I am traveling away for a weeks. Will it cure my depression? Most likely not, but it is worth a shot, and what is 2 weeks when I have my entire life deciding whether I should end it early or not.
And for anyone thinking I am entitled, I am not. I sold most of my posessions in order for this to happen.

Damn, more like 4700 with modern medicine. CTB seems better by the day.

 

[walkingdead2023]

I understand what you mean. this post was in no way meant to promote "pro-life propaganda". It was more like, enjoy yourself on your last time on earth. And if you like it, maybe you will do it again. I did not post this to prevent suicide, I believe suicide is a choice we all have to make for ourselves and rightfully so.

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This hit me hard. When you are ready to give up, why not do something you never imagined yourself doing. As for me I am traveling away for a weeks. Will it cure my depression? Most likely not, but it is worth a shot, and what is 2 weeks when I have my entire life deciding whether I should end it early or not.
And for anyone thinking I am entitled, I am not. I sold most of my posessions in order for this to happen.

Good luck! I encourage hope. Just because we're suicidal doesn't mean we're right. To me I have a very strong reason to die and asap but not everyone have that. This is your life and you should live it the way you want.. try why not maybe you have great future!

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

Go for it. What does a person that plans to die anyways really have to lose?