This is such a cruel fate

[userfromgermany]

So basically my brain is damaged due to psychatric drugs and I sink into ever increasing depression as I literally feel neurons dying in my brain. This goes on for weeks already. Tried ketamine yesterday and it made everything worse. The Sun is shining outside and all my friends are wating for me to get well again but I'm spiralling deeper and deeper into the pit. I loved my life before psychatric harm and I can't let it go even though nothing but misery awaits me. What a cruel fucking fate for anyone to enjure.

 

[iloverachel]

I am so sorry my friend. I hope your brain improves somehow and that you can enjoy life again

 

[momento.mori]

I hope you get better soon so you can enjoy life! It's so unfair that you've done what the doctors have ordered and now you are stuck suffering. Hopefully in a few days this will pass!

 

[userfromgermany]

Thank you for the compassion. I'm at my wits end. My brain reacts catastrophically to every chemical I put into it but I also can't go off all medication cold turkey because that would wreak even more havoc in my fucked up brain chemnistry.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry you have to go through this. Life is often so unfair. I hope you can find peace somehow.

 

[born_borken]

It seems very hard, I am sorry for you. Hold on. You'll get better.
What meds are you on ? Probably SSRIs or antipsychotics ?

 

[userfromgermany]

I should have CBT weeks or even months ago. But something holds me back. A thought like "this can't possibly be the end of my story" but it apparently is.

 

[whywere]

Lots of love, caring vibes and you are so special to me. Having thoughtful friends, like you, makes my lonely life everything, thank you.

Walter

 

[FuneralCry]

That must be so horrible what you are going through, it's certainly so incredibly cruel how people have to suffer so much in this existence. But anyway best wishes.

 

[QueerMelancholy]

If it's too bright and sunny outside for you right now let your friends in to keep you company wherever you feel safest.

I am sorry you're going through this. After being on medication for so long myself I think I understand somewhat how it feels how we poison ourselves with pills so the disease we never asked for doesn't completely poison our lives.

Such a strange tradeoff. One for the other. I hope wherever you end up there's some relief there.