this is probably goodbye

[IJustWantToTalk]

The time is currently 11:20 PM. I plan to leave in the next 2 hours. I will reply to as many messages as possible before I decide to go. I will update if I don't go through with it. But I'm ready. I believe that my time has come. Once I go, I will make one more update with my final goodbyes. I can't wait for everything to go black.

 

[Anhedoniac]

I hope you're absolutely sure that this is what you want since there's no room for second-guessing once you're dead. Otherwise, I wish you good luck and a peaceful death!

Well, that said my first question will be: what do you think led you to this point? When did catching the bus started to be seen as more appealing than continuing living for you?

 

[IJustWantToTalk]

I hope you're absolutely sure that this is what you want since there's no room for second-guessing once you're dead. Otherwise, I wish you good luck and a peaceful death!

Well, that said my first question will be: what do you think led you to this point? When did catching the bus started to be seen as more appealing than continuing living for you?

My life has always sucked. Then my parents outed me. My life is literally hell now. I'm done with this shit.

 

[Anhedoniac]

My life has always sucked. Then my parents outed me. My life is literally hell now. I'm done with this shit.

Can you elaborate on what made your life hell if you're comfortable talking about it?

 

[born2win]

My life has always sucked. Then my parents outed me. My life is literally hell now. I'm done with this shit.

whats your method? Personally im going via SN

 

[IJustWantToTalk]

Can you elaborate on what made your life hell if you're comfortable talking about it?

Medical issues, bullying, issues with my parents regarding my beliefs and my sexuality, toxic school environment, basically everything. My meds no longer help, family and friends don't and can't understand how I feel. The only people I have on my side are my boyfriend and my best friend. I can't take this anymore.

whats your method? Personally im going via SN

Jumping, there's nothing else available to me.

 

[Touhou]

Medical issues, bullying, issues with my parents regarding my beliefs and my sexuality, toxic school environment, basically everything. My meds no longer help, family and friends don't and can't understand how I feel. The only people I have on my side are my boyfriend and my best friend. I can't take this anymore.

Jumping, there's nothing else available to me.

Jumping from what height?

 

[IJustWantToTalk]

Jumping from what height?

About 150 feet

 

[Touhou]

About 150 feet

I've heard stories of survival from even higher jumps, believe it or not, but taking into consideration the fact that this is your only option, I'd say go headfirst.
Either way, farewell & I hope the bus ride's smooth.

 

[Sparr0w]

I wish you luck and peace

 

[Anhedoniac]

Medical issues, bullying, issues with my parents regarding my beliefs and my sexuality, toxic school environment, basically everything. My meds no longer help, family and friends don't and can't understand how I feel. The only people I have on my side are my boyfriend and my best friend. I can't take this anymore.

Jumping, there's nothing else available to me.

Is your boyfriend and best friend aware of your intentions to CTB? Have you talked about it to them? I know it's your choice and it's inevitable that they'd try to guilt trip you into not going forward with your plan but I personally think a loved one deserves some kind of closure

 

[IJustWantToTalk]

Is your boyfriend and best friend aware of your intentions to CBT? Have you talked about it to them? I know it's your choice and it's inevitable that they'd try to guilt trip you into not going forward with your plan but I personally think a loved one deserves some kind of closure

They know about my depression, but not my current intentions

 

[Avalanche81]

They know about my depression, but not my current intentions

Just make sure this is what your truly want. Your boyfriend and best friend deserve some closure.

Lastly I've heard of a lot of ppl surviving a 150 feet jump only to become worse with there health.

Just make sure this is the method your really want to try.

 

[general bacon]

Safe travels friend, I wish it didn't have to be this way. You will be in my thoughts.

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

I hope it is peaceful for you.

 

[AngelicPsychedelic]

Goodbye, I hope you can rest well! <3

 

[FuneralCry]

It's very much understandable wishing to finally be free from this hellish world, it' so awful how so much endless suffering exists here. I hope that you find the outcome that you are searching for, I wish you the best.

 

[Yuki K]

All the best, I wish you a peaceful death!

 

[Shivali]

 

[Winry]

I hope you are at peace, whatever you decided to do. You are in my thoughts today.