Defenestration
I want to have the courage to kill myself
- Oct 25, 2020
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This incredibly depressing realization I'm not doing well... but It will only get worse.
it will only get worse over time. Someone who is depressed/lost their job/has gone through a breakup/is grieving might tell themselves that things will be better in 6 months or a year.
But me:
- My mother has Alzheimer's disease and it can only get worse.
- My father is turning 76 and is starting to get tired.
- My dog is going to be 12 years old and he won't be around forever.
- My numerous psychiatric illnesses that I've been dealing with for over 20 years are incurable.
On top of that, I have both my parents to support.
I dream of committing suicide, but I can't. The longer this goes on, the harder it will be for me...
the next 5 years are going to be very difficult.
it will only get worse over time. Someone who is depressed/lost their job/has gone through a breakup/is grieving might tell themselves that things will be better in 6 months or a year.
But me:
- My mother has Alzheimer's disease and it can only get worse.
- My father is turning 76 and is starting to get tired.
- My dog is going to be 12 years old and he won't be around forever.
- My numerous psychiatric illnesses that I've been dealing with for over 20 years are incurable.
On top of that, I have both my parents to support.
I dream of committing suicide, but I can't. The longer this goes on, the harder it will be for me...
the next 5 years are going to be very difficult.
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