This hurricane makes me want to CTB even more.

[Sick of it all]

I'm near the cone of uncertainty and all this rain is threatening my home. My back porch floods bad and I have to shop vac it out. If I lose power then I'm really screwed. I wish I didn't live here. I wish I didn't have to deal with the anxiety. My shotgun is like 6 feet from me in my closet. Pop a shell in there and boom. It would be too easy. Unfortunately it's not that easy. I can't CTB right now and let my brother down. He relies on me. Maybe I can sort my affairs and go out in like 6 months. But for now I'm stuck in crummy life.

So how is your day going? Hopefully better than mine.

 

[makethepainstop]

I'm in a mobile home double wide on an acre in the woods. I was planning to ctb with sn. But if this damn storm totals the place.....I have no insurance and no where else to live. I'll just reach for my 45 revolver. I damn well couldn't handle homeless ness! I hope you and yours will be alright.

 

[Sick of it all]

I'm in a mobile home double wide on an acre in the woods. I was planning to ctb with sn. But if this damn storm totals the place.....I have no insurance and no where else to live. I'll just reach for my 45 revolver. I damn well couldn't handle homeless ness! I hope you and yours will be alright.

Sorry about your situation. I too feel like I'm eventually gonna be homeless and that would crush me. I know it will eventually happen and that has me in a lot of mental pain. I'm gonna stop thinking about it. Yeah, right. Appreciate the goodwill, hopefully you get lucky and brave he storm without being in a bad way.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm very tired of existing as usual and it really does sound so ideal to never wake again. I doubt that such a thing as a good day even exists. There is nothing really good about being alive, in fact there are unlimited amount of reasons why life could never be a good thing and I could certainly never want to be here no matter what.

I do think that it's awful how life can very easily get worse and things out of our control can cause us to suffer more. It's understandable why that would want to make you ctb even more. The amount of suffering that exists in this world really is so horrifying.

 

[makethepainstop]

Well guys it just me and the dog. Storm will hit tonight, well I have been praying for God to end this for years. Perhaps this is going to be my way. Also thinking about my sn, and trying it before the place gets blown away. Can anyone tell me what it's like to die in a hurricane? Please.

 

[Al0neAlwayz]

Well guys it just me and the dog. Storm will hit tonight, well I have been praying for God to end this for years. Perhaps this is going to be my way. Also thinking about my sn, and trying it before the place gets blown away. Can anyone tell me what it's like to die in a hurricane? Please.

Well, that all depends on what gets you... If a tornado spawns and hits you it could be quick and painless. On the other hand, if you suffer trauma from flying debris that could be painful and maybe not even ctb. If it's from water (storm surge or flooding) that could be slow and not my first choice in methods.... I feel for you, and pray you find peace (not just in the storm but overall). If you decide to ctb, I pray it goes quickly and without complication. I am far north of you, near Gainesville, and it is only breezy here. Supposed to be worse tonight. I am alone with my cats. Wish I could come keep you and your dog company. I work another hour then get to go home. I'll be around if you want/need to chat or anything.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

I hope that you aren't too badly affected, if at all. I understand not wanting to deal with overwhelming things like this.

 

[makethepainstop]

I have screwed up again! So I am waiting to be killed via hurricane....we got wind we got rain....and I am still here! I'd thinking my double wide will become airborne, and I will go ker splat against one of the large oak trees out here. But no! I'm thinking well maybe a large oak tree will be thrown at me in the house and I'll croak naturally! With all if the thousands killed each year by weather, (who didn't want to croak), I can't be one of them. Why I do believe y'all that the universe is conspiring to MAKE some of us live. I don't have to tell you that it is most annoying, most annoying indeed! Here I already had made a mental list of the dead relatives, I was going to tell to fk off when I saw them again. Damnit! I was ready to go! Oh well still have my sn plan. Love to all here, even those who think they don't deserve it.

 

[Sick of it all]

I have screwed up again! So I am waiting to be killed via hurricane....we got wind we got rain....and I am still here! I'd thinking my double wide will become airborne, and I will go ker splat against one of the large oak trees out here. But no! I'm thinking well maybe a large oak tree will be thrown at me in the house and I'll croak naturally! With all if the thousands killed each year by weather, (who didn't want to croak), I can't be one of them. Why I do believe y'all that the universe is conspiring to MAKE some of us live. I don't have to tell you that it is most annoying, most annoying indeed! Here I already had made a mental list of the dead relatives, I was going to tell to fk off when I saw them again. Damnit! I was ready to go! Oh well still have my sn plan. Love to all here, even those who think they don't deserve it.

Sorry to hear that you are still alive and in pain. I'm in the same boat. I wish my house would have collapsed on me. But I'm not so lucky, I survived the storm.

 

[makethepainstop]

I understand you completely, I'm right with you. Most disappointing indeed. Oh well there is always the next one. Sometimes doesn't it feel like some evil trick of fate keeps unwilling people alive? Much love to you.

 

[Hope:-)]

I'm so sorry you are stuck in the middle of this hurricane and the damage it is doing to your home. It's very sweet of you to still ask how our day is going whilst you're dealing with this. Sending you love from the UK x

I'm in a mobile home double wide on an acre in the woods. I was planning to ctb with sn. But if this damn storm totals the place.....I have no insurance and no where else to live. I'll just reach for my 45 revolver. I damn well couldn't handle homeless ness! I hope you and yours will be alright.

Oh I'm so sorry I didn't see your post. You're there too? This is just awful. Thinking of you guys x

 

[Sick of it all]

I understand you completely, I'm right with you. Most disappointing indeed. Oh well there is always the next one. Sometimes doesn't it feel like some evil trick of fate keeps unwilling people alive? Much love to you.

This is true. There will always be another. Much love back to ya. Keep your head up and I'll do the same.