Thinking of ending it

[Lovemykids]

I been thinking of taking an exit, I never thought of this before as I had happy life until 2 months ago, All my life is about my 2 children age 6 years old and 9 months old until recent my wife torn them away from me, It's heavy for me to move on, I've been grieving and depressed for months, I don't have any family here other than my child

I been searching few exit method painless way, I'm the type who even afraid to get injection from dentist, I been searching and read the Helium exit bag, Nembutal & SN is painless way, Hope someone can shed me some light which method among this 3 will be painless and effective without me knowing or going into panic attack

Will I be unconscious before even knowing anything, While I'm unconscious for example if I have cardiac arrest will my body try to fight and I wake up half way in process, I'm so stupid when come to this so please share me some light to seek peaceful.

 

[Miss clefable]

Try CO

 

[Lovemykids]

Try CO

What is CO (Sorry very new here didn't know the terms)
What is the method and how it works

 

[Miss clefable]

What is CO (Sorry very new here didn't know the terms)
What is the method and how it works

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/carbon-monoxide-megathread.2053/

 

[Jovaras]

Carbon monoxide

 

[Avicii]

I been thinking of taking an exit, I never thought of this before as I had happy life until 2 months ago, All my life is about my 2 children age 6 years old and 9 months old until recent my wife torn them away from me, It's heavy for me to move on, I've been grieving and depressed for months, I don't have any family here other than my child

I been searching few exit method painless way, I'm the type who even afraid to get injection from dentist, I been searching and read the Helium exit bag, Nembutal & SN is painless way, Hope someone can shed me some light which method among this 3 will be painless and effective without me knowing or going into panic attack

Will I be unconscious before even knowing anything, While I'm unconscious for example if I have cardiac arrest will my body try to fight and I wake up half way in process, I'm so stupid when come to this so please share me some light to seek peaceful.

Try living for your kids ?? Do you get any access at all ??

I'm alll for those that are depressed killing them selves but you have hope - you should reach out to another user on here called Laura Francis - she feels suicidal because of the sudden death of her husband but everyday she fights because she has a son

 

[Avicii]

I'm

What is CO (Sorry very new here didn't know the terms)
What is the method and how it works

where are you from

 

[No1SpecL2U]

It's still recent for you and I hope things improve for yourself and your children. I'm rowing in the same boat. As a man who lost his parents very young, I'm aware of things my daughters will endure. I'm however confident they will still have a great, happy, supporting life in my absence. It's all not enough for me to stop contemplating and making an exit upon my choice though. May you find what you're seeking in the best ways possible for whateverthis fucked up universe may hold for you.

 

[Lovemykids]

I live in Canada
Since the birth of my child I supposedly doing all the mommy work from bathing them cooking feeding them and tuck them to bed, sending and picking from school & daycare. Emotionally too attached with them until I decided to work from home to be with my children more, now she telling the court that I am dangerous to her and the kids, She been stop talking to me since beginning of this year while living under same roof, It has been stress and depressed but I moved on since I still have the children by my side, until 2 months ago we had a fight and she beat me and end up police arrested her, despite all this the court still give her the custody, family law is flawed, justice was not served, everything in nature work againts me, I get supervised visit weekly which mentally breaking me down

 

[Lara Francis]

Hi.
I am sorry to hear of your situation,virtual hugs.
This site is pro choice and I am not going to encourage or discourage you from suicide as ultimately it is your choice but as I am in a similar situation and may be able to offer you some support.I won't be offended if you decline.
As Avicii said - I have a 9 year old son who is now in temporary foster care due to my repeated sucide attempts.I was very unwell and could not see any other way.I have supervised visits as I am considered a danger to him so I see him 3 times a week for 1.5 hours.!
Supervised visits are frustrating but not forever.I fight everyday against suicidal thoughts and sometimes I don't know where this strength comes from and you have this too.
There is going to be bearable days and totally shit ones but just try to take each one as it comes and it's less overwhelming.I can see you love your children just by your site name but you feel you have lost hope and the world is against you but things can get better or will be a million times worse for your children if you go.They will feel like they were not enough for you to stay.I wish my son still had his dad-it's very unfair to lose a parent at 7 years old even when it's not through suicide.just think how strong you will be and an inspiration of strength and courage for your children to see.Please don't give up,I know it is hard (understatement! ).
I once said that I would do anything for my son - I would die for him.They told me to live for him instead.
He tells me that the sky is grey at the minute but will change blue when we are back together.The love and time you have with your children is priceless and what you do will potentially will effect them emotionally and mentally for the rest of their lives.I have been so so close to death and am glad I did not go ahead.
Me and my boy will create a new life when he returns and he is absolutely worth waiting for.
Sorry lots of food for thought.
Thinking of you x

 

[ctoan]

bro - in those case actually a therapie and medication may help

if it doesnt work you can still kill yourself after it

 

[Abacabb]

I'd really like to know you're situation in a little more detail, as I have a child as well and she keeps getting ripped away from me everytime her mother and I decide to "take a break". Well I feel this is the last break. It hurts really bad because the little girl really loves me. But I am lied about to her. I was about to make a new thread about those of us with children.. but I'll just post here first. I have been in this situation for almost this little girls whole life. In and out of her life (not my choice), wondering if she can forget me if I go.

 

[Fucking loving it]

My daughter passed away at age 10. I have a son. He needs me.
I am pained from a life of trauma and losing my daughter. I am still alive for him.
Everyday I want to die. It's a struggle for sure, but for me he's that 1 thing to fight for.

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

My daughter passed away at age 10. I have a son. He needs me.
I am pained from a life of trauma and losing my daughter. I am still alive for him.
Everyday I want to die. It's a struggle for sure, but for me he's that 1 thing to fight for.

That is a beautiful thing to fight for for sure.

 

[MachineGunDani]

My daughter passed away at age 10. I have a son. He needs me.
I am pained from a life of trauma and losing my daughter. I am still alive for him.
Everyday I want to die. It's a struggle for sure, but for me he's that 1 thing to fight for.

:( I had no idea

 

[Made4TV]

I wish there was a way his kids could see this when they're older and think he abandoned them without thought of them, since that's how that narrative usually goes. <3

 

[Avicii]

Had anyone heard from Laura ?? She just went quiet one day mid Decenber and hasn't posted since I understood she was in a bad way but seemed to be getting better ?? Laura if your out there reading this reply to let the community know your in a good place

 

[Jenna]

I was actually reading her posts and wondering the same thing. I hope she is ok.

 

[Avicii]

She was so busy on here too always posting nearly every day then all of a sudden abruptly stopped - so sad if he has left without saying goodbye !! Maybe she was involved in an accident sorry I'm speculating too much !!! Maybe she has been sectioned again but this time they've took her phone off her if they're allowed to do that that is ??!!!!

 

[21Neberg]

I think she's still alive. None of us would leave without saying goodbye, right?

 

[Avicii]

I think she's still alive. None of us would leave without saying goodbye, right?

Yes but could have been a spontaneous decision ??? Leaving on here less spontaneous more slowly goodbyes etc

 

[Worsethangarbage]

Wasn't lovemykids a fraud?

 

[About_to_Go]

Wasn't lovemykids a fraud?

Yes, that's why that account has been banned. I'm not sure why this thread was revived for this conversation, it would be more appropriate to post in the user discussion thread in OT.

 

[Johnnythefox]

None of us would leave without saying goodbye, right?

I think there's probably more than a few people who just find what information they are looking for and leave without a word.

 

[21Neberg]

I think there's probably more than a few people who just find what information they are looking for and leave without a word.

Right but I am referring to the active members of the community.

 

[Chinaski]

I think there's probably more than a few people who just find what information they are looking for and leave without a word.

I also suspect that those people significantly outnumber those who ctb after a lengthy goodbye thread tbqh, given how many people often ctb as an urgent impulse rather than as a lengthy, drawn out affair. In fact, the actual OP of this thread did a fraudulent goodbye thread, ffs.

 

[JustAboutDone]

In fact, the actual OP of this thread did a fraudulent goodbye thread, ffs.

That nearly made me hallucinate with it's downright far-fetched, convoluted weirdery. It's a really disturbing thing to do.

 

[Chinaski]

That nearly made me hallucinate with it's downright far-fetched, convoluted weirdery. It's a really disturbing thing to do.

Fucker did it as part of a dreadful N scam. A lot of bullshit is posted on here about my supposed deficit in empathy, kindness, whatever, but if you saw that crap go down you'd perhaps know why that is.

 

[JustAboutDone]

Fucker did it as part of a dreadful N scam. A lot of bullshit is posted on here about my supposed deficit in empathy, kindness, whatever, but if you saw that crap go down you'd perhaps know why that is.

I was lurking and read all about it. Omnipresent me...

 

[JustAboutDone]

Fucker did it as part of a dreadful N scam. A lot of bullshit is posted on here about my supposed deficit in empathy, kindness, whatever, but if you saw that crap go down you'd perhaps know why that is.

Some people are, sadly, utter scum. Preying on the vulnerable like that just beggars belief and takes a special kind of evil. It is fortunate you saw through him and were able to piece together his elaborate jigsaw of seemingly credible lies.

One can only really hope to have faith in Karma sometimes to deal with people like that.