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MellowAvenue
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- Nov 5, 2020
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Pretty much exactly what the title says, I'm thinking about opening up to someone about my ideations but am unsure who to tell and if I even should. I realized over this weekend I am ready to end it but am lacking the means to do it in a way I feel confident about so instead I'm considering just letting out one last cry for help before I begin thinking of more drastic measures to end my life. I would see a therapist but am unsure if I could afford it. Tried the Suicide Chatline but... I dunno, they tried to help and maybe I didn't open up as much as I needed to for them to give me the right push but it felt too impersonal. I briefly considered telling the HR at my work but quickly realized this is a terrible idea, so that leaves my rather small pool of friends and family that I'm in contact with. I've pretty much narrowed it down to 2 people and am looking for advice or even any stories from people who have done this to try and decide which one to tell and if I really should drop this on them. I kind of know the general rule of thumb is to keep it bottled up unless you have access to a professional to tell it seems, but I don't know if that's a good option for me anymore.