Thinking about cutting my head off

[Jon]

Well I am thinking that but I'm not gonna do it obviously
I just looked at "her " Facebook.
And I can't fucking handle it.
She's in love and she looks more beautiful than ever , and I'm well,l I'm fucking here.
Day after day of nothingness .
How the fuck do you let someone go ?
I love her and actually hate her in equal measure .
She ruined me and she don't even care.
She's in love with that pompous little prick . Sure he is handsome .has more money than me , has tons of friends, looks like a fun guy ,hell I'm sure he has a bigger dick too .
But I fucking love her .
She was my last chance , and I'm a lock in since she left .
Clever girl .
But I can't get over the bitch .
So I must die . But I can't bring down my struggling family right now. They had it too hard already .
So I exist . Like that painting .Scream is it? You know the one .That's me. In hell every waking moment .
Helpful thought ,stop looking at her Facebook.
But I love her and want to see her.
Must I die for you must I die like this .

Block her on Facebook, and other social media sites. So you're not tempted to see her, delete all emails and photos. Distract yourself by deep strategy games, like EUIV or Civilization. Play until you sleep. What I did when I broke up with my last ex was quit smoking, and shockingly actually succeeded for ten months without smoking, a personal record, though I did start back again. But I succeeded because I was so focused on getting my body into shape and generally looking healthier because I was so desperate to replace her. Though so far, I haven't, though I have had the occasional date which picked me up for bit. Failed relationships get more difficult when we age (even though the loss of my very first love when I was in my teens was excruciatingly painful as I'd never experienced such fierce and intense pain before), because we know that we are less attractive as we get older, so the attractive girls we all crave for get ever further from our reach. The initial pain does pass though, it starts with shock and disbelief, anger at oneself, low self-esteem, difficulty both getting to sleep and waking up, loss of appetite. Then you'll pick yourself up and find another, or not, depends largely on your age. The Sorrows of Young Werther is my favourite fictional book because many men can relate so well to the story and the questions he asks himself, it was apparently loosely an autobiography as well.

 

[2CropcircleUNeedHelp]

Well I am thinking that but I'm not gonna do it obviously
I just looked at "her " Facebook.
And I can't fucking handle it.
She's in love and she looks more beautiful than ever , and I'm well,l I'm fucking here.
Day after day of nothingness .
How the fuck do you let someone go ?
I love her and actually hate her in equal measure .
She ruined me and she don't even care.
She's in love with that pompous little prick . Sure he is handsome .has more money than me , has tons of friends, looks like a fun guy ,hell I'm sure he has a bigger dick too .
But I fucking love her .
She was my last chance , and I'm a lock in since she left .
Clever girl .
But I can't get over the bitch .
So I must die . But I can't bring down my struggling family right now. They had it too hard already .
So I exist . Like that painting .Scream is it? You know the one .That's me. In hell every waking moment .
Helpful thought ,stop looking at her Facebook.
But I love her and want to see her.
Must I die for you must I die like this .

A man who is confident has options. If you didn't think you had options then, she would have sensed it. This is why she didn't think you were good enough. You rise or fall from here. Your choice.

 

[bigj75]

I'll say it before and I'll say it again. Suffering is subjective. This heartbreak may be effecting op on a level we can't comprehend. So we have no authority to say if it's a justifiable reason to ctb or not.

 

[Living_Ghost]

A man who is confident has options. If you didn't think you had options then, she would have sensed it. This is why she didn't think you were good enough. You rise or fall from here. Your choice.

Of course. She saw what I was and couldn't get away fast enough .Too me thats fucking cruel. Just like damaged goods being thrown in the bin. Anyway .I fell.

 

[Living_Ghost]

I'll say it before and I'll say it again. Suffering is subjective. This heartbreak may be effecting op on a level we can't comprehend. So we have no authority to say if it's a justifiable reason to ctb or not.

Yeah you are right. Its all consuming. Like a Heathcliff and Cathy situation.

 

[Living_Ghost]

Block her on Facebook, and other social media sites. So you're not tempted to see her, delete all emails and photos. Distract yourself by deep strategy games, like EUIV or Civilization. Play until you sleep. What I did when I broke up with my last ex was quit smoking, and shockingly actually succeeded for ten months without smoking, a personal record, though I did start back again. But I succeeded because I was so focused on getting my body into shape and generally looking healthier because I was so desperate to replace her. Though so far, I haven't, though I have had the occasional date which picked me up for bit. Failed relationships get more difficult when we age (even though the loss of my very first love when I was in my teens was excruciatingly painful as I'd never experienced such fierce and intense pain before), because we know that we are less attractive as we get older, so the attractive girls we all crave for get ever further from our reach. The initial pain does pass though, it starts with shock and disbelief, anger at oneself, low self-esteem, difficulty both getting to sleep and waking up, loss of appetite. Then you'll pick yourself up and find another, or not, depends largely on your age. The Sorrows of Young Werther is my favourite fictional book because many men can relate so well to the story and the questions he asks himself, it was apparently loosely an autobiography as well.

All true and some good advice. Thanks for book recommendation I will check it out.

 

[Aaron Josef]

Suffering from a Broken Heart is the worst Pain on Earth, it is Mental/Physical.
That's just my opinion though.

 

[BlackDragonof1989]

I can relate, it's hard *hugs*

 

[2CropcircleUNeedHelp]

Of course. She saw what I was and couldn't get away fast enough .Too me thats fucking cruel. Just like damaged goods being thrown in the bin. Anyway .I fell.

Yes I agree. Freedom is all about choosing what is best for yourself, not anyone else. It is a trade. If she is not getting approval from a respected source, she will go where she will feel that. Women compliment men when they respect them fully. It would be bad if the meaning of a woman listening to you was lowered by the expectation that women are free. You are going to have to pay in some way. Attention, money.... they are attracted to the ones who make them feel like they are getting a good deal, someone above their standards. It is all about respecting themselves and the standards they want to have. Do they become too confident at times and expect too much.... yes. That is a reflection of their lack of wisdom. You can decide to not care if they want to leave, which means you have options and are a good leader. If she proves she is trust worthy after saying she wants to come back after she realizes you are confident without her, thus improving your value in her eyes, maybe you can let her back in. But it is important to weigh the options. If you can't trust her after already having left it might lead to you not enjoying the relationship as much. It can be good that she proved to you she was not appreciative, but it sounds like she was not to arrogant to leave. It helps to think of it from your perspective only, where you have a high sense of self value. It is arrogant to assume that you can attract females while being of low confidence. When you are reliant on one female's approval it portrays that you do not feel you are good enough to attract more than one woman. A woman wants a valuable man. People like novelty. A woman who doesn't think of her self as highly, would appreciate the novelty of a lower value, confidence man. There is a certain threshold for women of decent standards. They won't give themselves up to someone with low confidence. The challenge is what makes the success enjoyable. It is ok to let them know that you are always looking to maximize your potential in the dating market. If you tell them that you think they are good enough for your high standards, they will think you will not want to leave and therefore committed. Some woman have a higher threshold and are only attracted to men who only stay with a girl when she does a lot to show she wants to stay with him. A high value man values proving to himself that he can get with high value girls. It would be going backwards in the progression of gaining confidence if they continued to try to get with a girl they already got with because that would mean that they doubted whether they deserved her the first time they got with each other. Women use men as well, so high value men don't want to give themselves up for anyone who wouldn't be a compliment to them. This equality makes the woman see the man as a high value man because it indicates he has a high self worth. Once he gets with a girl the first time he is not motivated to stay with her. She sees his resistance to commit as a display of high value. He only wants to give his time to a woman who appreciates him and shows that she thinks him is of high value. A woman who gets with him and then doesn't try to get him to stay wouldn't be appreciating the strong leadership qualities of the man. The man would be conceding to himself and onlookers that he is not a very good leader if he feels inadequate without the approval of the woman. The main reason he got with the woman in the first place was because he wanted to produce offspring or pretend that was why. He wouldn't enter the relationship to give his life meaning. Even if he wanted to gain confidence from gaining her approval, he still would think that it was partly her mistakes and not his that led to this outcome. People get with people who add to their confidence. People get with those who add value to their life. This generation has experienced a lot of false advertising for what relationships really are. Who ever initiates is the leader. Who ever has more value, is the leader. This is because the person who is of high value will be in greater demand, so he has more power in every negotiation. The person of lower value in the relationship will feel that they are replaceable while their partner is not. This will to conform to the expectations of the higher value person is what makes them accepting of the leadership of the higher value person. I think men are suited to perform better in jobs and life considering how they are made. Their hormones lead to a more efficient lifestyle. Each role is to be respected. Complimenting men can lead to them being more efficient in life. If men can perform better in the job market, and people realize this, relationships take the most efficient form. If they decide to not have kids, it might make each partner think they are not of as high of a value as they thought they were. Even if you are acting like you are high value when you do not feel that way, it is valuable. Even if she finds out you were acting for confident than you were, you would have displayed higher value than average because it makes you intelligent and a leader, but just not as confident as a leader who was not acting. When you act like someone, you are that someone. If you appear to go out of character, you are of lower value than the character who didn't display he was not confident in the first part of the situation. You are what you are. We all have felt bad, and we all have felt good.

 

[crova]

Like many said already: start from removing yourself from facebook completely. Instant relief.
You will probably experience new levels of existence [maybe some sort of enlightenment] when you finally do it.

Get a good bike, best one you can afford, carbon or titanium and use it every day until you drop and only thing left in you mind will be going sleep.
After a couple of months of this simple routine you will be like new again full of energy, much stronger, laughing at yourself from the past..

 

[Gainax]

im going to recommend you some youtube channels on how to deal with women and focus on yourself



i find his personality funny but he says many things that makes sense

 

[Volatile]

:p

Daaaaam

 

[mattwitt]

My one boss use to tell me that if I wanted to lose 20lbs. of ugly fat all I had to do was cut off my head.

 

[Pastdue]

There are 7 billion people in the world. Out there is probably a woman just like her but would love you and is probably more down to earth. Why are you dismissing all the other woman instead of giving them a go? Why is she so special? Does she have something other women do not? There might be a woman out there you are going to meet and she will be so happy to meet you and love you and you will be her life. Are you gong to deny her that just because of one woman you couldn't get out of your head?