Think Tank: You are given 24hrs to plan and execute your ticket to ctb…

[nopride86]

…you have no dignified or painless methods available and there is only a 6hr window to actually execute whatever plan you come up with in the 18hrs prior. If you miss this window, your life gets exponentially worse AND you won't have another chance to ctb for a very long time.

Considerations:
There are no tall buildings or bridges in your town, (edit: nor running trains). You have a newer vehicle so CO is too much of a gamble, as is Partial. Your home is basically a padded cell aside from some regular cleaning products, forks/spoons, a garbage bag, and some Quetiapine (which has never been taken before).
There is no time to source SN, N, or the usual necessities for an exit bag.

What is your thought process and what would you do?

This is for me, but this is also the reality for so many of us who don't have reliable options or access. What do people like us do? Risk mutilation, brain damage, and institutionalization?

Have some fun in the responses, make it funny or be serious I don't care.

 

[Shu]

There was this one guy who chewed into his artery in prison and bled out.
Well.. they could find a rope tie it to a pole wrap it around their neck get into their car and hit the gas.

 

[deathbydragon]

Neck on a train track. (Edit: dammit lmao)
Or H2S inhalation in the car.

 

[Lost Magic]

 

[yeh it's all gucci]

Neck on a train track.
Or H2S inhalation in the car.

With no running trains, I think you'd be waiting a while, maybe die of starvation or hypothermia if it's super cold where you are

 

[UnravelingWinter]

There was this one guy who chewed into his artery in prison and bled out.
Well.. they could find a rope tie it to a pole wrap it around their neck get into their car and hit the gas.

I think car decapitation with a rope is the best answer

 

[symphony]

Well, yikes, for starters.

I've always said that my plan is to dress up in a a banana costume, eat 10,000,000 bananas to die of radiation poisoning, and make sure at the end of it all I slip on a banana peel and fall off a tall building. But I gather that wouldn't be an option here.

I'd probably swallow any and all pills that could help knock me out, including anything I had prescription or could get OTC. Then I'd tie a garbage bag over my head and research the best way to tie up my hands and legs so I couldn't free myself. Probably a shitty-ass death but almost certain to succeed as long as the bag isn't dislodged, and if you're lucky the drugs will speed up unconsciousness. I take low doses of Quetiapine for sleep so that might be helpful, but it's certainly not enough to knock you right out.

 

[Red Scare]

Go to home depo, buy a small grill and a lot of coal, find a place to park my car, roll up all windows. Light the grill, wait.

Or alternately. Buy some propane and a propane burning heater, they emit C02

 

[Noob]

I would Just buy a rope and go full suspension.
Analyse if the home have support for it or if i can install a good support for the rope.
Otherwise find a remote place and do it there. Can be the woods, some abandoned place or maybe a hotel. If i lived in this location for some time, maybe i would have this knowledge about the surroundings already.

 

[mundanejane]

im sure i could get creative if i ave access to enough alcohol?

 

[summers]

You have a car. Drive to a gun store, buy a shotgun, problem solved. If you're in a county with no guns, find some homeless people, give them $20 for their heroin connect, buy 2g, syringe at a drugstore, and you're gtg. Last option, buy a small hibachi or grill and charcoal. Light it in your car with windows closed, go to sleep, and don't wake up.

 

[Chiisai]

Go to home depo, buy a small grill and a lot of coal, find a place to park my car, roll up all windows. Light the grill, wait.

Id be doing the same too but I'll have kegs of beer, have a nice BBQ, invite some strangers/hobos, and feast towards heart attack. Haha

 

[FuneralCry]

I would probably just end up suffering. If ctb is so difficult I simply would not attempt. The fear of failure is what holds me back from doing it. I am pretty much trapped in this world anyway, it is so depressing. I just wish I could pass away in my sleep.

 

[nopride86]

Thank you all for your input. I joined the forum with charcoal grill in mind but learning of others, I really wish SN was readily available (I can't get anything shipped).
I might be circling back to charcoal grill even if there's a higher risk of something going wrong, resulting in brain damage. Finding a place to do it in the middle of the day without raising suspicion is a toughie, I've never lit anything on fire before (except for candles).

Guns are fairly easy to get where I live, but someone in the family recently attempted and survived. So I can't bring myself to go for it, I refuse to spend the rest of my life as a disfigured zombie.

My SI is still strong at this point, but I really don't want to live past tomorrow. I might just have to deal with it until I can try again in August. Thank you all again, I will keep learning.

In the meantime, post some ridiculous methods that could, in theory, do the trick! The more ridiculous the better but keeping physical pain to a minimum.