RevolutionaryRed
Member
- Apr 8, 2018
- 60
I think the biggest conflict of my life these past two years were trying to decide whether I wanted to live or die. A strange euphoric feeling consumed me once I realized I wanted to ctb. I've been depressed and suicidal for years. Hell, I was a member of the original subreddit. In 2018 I posted a goodbye message and attempted suicide. My method was drowning to death. Obviously it didn't work out. I wanna get it right this time. I'm not gonna share my new method but I believe it's good enough. There is one thing I want to do before I go, I really wanna go on a date. It's not even about sex, I just wanna vibe with someone. For years I've had very low self esteem and pretty much convinced myself that I was hideous and scum of the earth. I actually still think that now, but I'm feeling.... good. It's strange .
