Venting things i want to do before i leave

[explsionsinthesky]

- meet my boyfriend, tell him i love him in person. look into his eyes, hold his hand, run my fingers through his hair. hold him. be held by him.
- eat over 1600 calories without feeling guilty. i want to do this for days. i want to eat all the junk food there is, all the candy and go to sleep not thinking of consequences
- sleep in past 12pm.
- go somewhere without telling my parents.
- get drunk.
- smoke some marijuana, try psychedelics
- pet some puppies and kittens

- finish my letters to my boyfriend, my mom, my dad, and my sister.
- finish my 100 page and counting memoir
- transfer all my money to my boyfriend's account
- give my drawing pad to my boyfriend's little sister
- donate all my books to my old high school for students who couldn't afford them
- take a considerable amount of my clothes and belongings (not enough for my mom to notice) to goodwill
- tell them all i am sorry and i love them

 

[Going Home]

-Spend a relaxing couple of days somewhere

 

[Kikoo Loool]

Hiking by night in the mountains in order to look at stars and planets in a pure sky. Then lie and die out of hypothermia.

 

[Ratbat]

Thats a good list i hope u get it done

 

[pole]

really amazing. truly sweet how you could do so much alone, go explore the world, just do anything for yourself, but you choose to also do things for others when you really don't have to. donate, give money. sorry it's come to this for you and i hope you find the peace you're looking for.

 

[Ladylethal]

1)I'd like to leave a note to someone that means alot to me but I feel too pathetic to even start.
2) Have a nice dinner with my ex fiance. Pray he'll be nice to me.
3) Maybe draw one last time.

Every day that I have to wait to CTB is painful. I can't wait to go.

 

[Ratbat]

1)I'd like to leave a note to someone that means alot to me but I feel too pathetic to even start.
2) Have a nice dinner with my ex fiance. Pray he'll be nice to me.
3) Maybe draw one last time.

Every day that I have to wait to CTB is painful. I can't wait to go.

I know how.u feel.i wanted to.finish painting my toy soldiers finish ps4 games and maybe write a small.ep on. Guitar or go for.a long walk

 

[RM5998]

Well, I don't really have an achievable list of things to do, so I'm just waiting for impulse here.

@explsionsinthesky I hope you get to tick off all the points you mentioned. Good luck!

 

[Saga]

eat my favorite foods
watch the sky at night
talk to him one last time( apologize for my existence)
see my cat one last time (i miss him so much)
meditate one last time (to be calm before i go)
write my funeral songs
say bye bye to tomorrow