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carried away by a moonlight shadow
- Aug 25, 2021
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I can't take it anymore. I have done tests, looking for exact times, I say goodbye to who should and I already have the clean conscience. In the early morning of this Monday October 18 if everything goes well, I will leave this world forever.
These are the ways in which I plan to proceed.
I don't have any experience... only the thousands of times I have rehearsed it in my head and some desires that have accompanied me all my life. That's why I would like you to give me your opinion, and so you help me improve the plan.
---------PLAN A: "Look Mom... there's something bright at the bottom of the pool---------
I remember when I was a little boy of only 11 years old and fantasized at school about holding my breath and dying. Then I would be reborn as a spirit, not necessarily human. No one would see me or know I'm there, I wouldn't have to worry about anything else and I would only be free to explore the world. With the passage of the Years my desires to be reborn disappeared, but the need to leave this world remains intact.
This plan is an evolution, more mature and realistic: of that fantasy that I remember for as long as I can remember.
In my house there is a small pool in which I fit perfectly lying down and a lot of water covers me. I'll take some pretty heavy stuff from my yard and with A rope I will tie to my body so that it is permanently anchored to the bottom and it is impossible for me to climb by myself. I will also put myself in my hands and legs plastic handcuffs of these used by the police of the United States. This way there will be no way for the survival instinct to save me.
-Positive Points of Plan A: It is the one that is most likely to succeed. Once you are at the bottom of the pool, lying down with all those liters of water standing between my lungs and oxygen: there will be no turning back. And if in half an hour no one finds me and takes me out, I will have left this world :).
-Negative Points Plan A: It is the one that can be most traumatic for my family. The idea that my mother can wake up the next morning and find my cadaver there at the bottom of the psyche... I don't want to impersonate hi
would see me or know I'm there, I wouldn't have to worry about anything else and I would only be free to explore the world. With the passage of the Years my desires to be reborn disappeared, but the need to leave this world remains intact.
This plan is an evolution, more mature and realistic: of that fantasy that I remember for as long as I can remember.
In my house there is a small pool in which I fit perfectly lying down and a lot of water covers me. I'll take some pretty heavy stuff from my yard and with A rope I will tie to my body so that it is permanently
m.
---------PLAN B: "I think I have an indigestion... I won't be able to go to work today---------
Here in Cuba, health care sucks. It becomes very difficult to get pills. So my mother is used to putting away all the medicines she finds. in case one day they can be useful. It has a whole bag filled with pantries of pills, most for normal things like fever, tummy pain, indigestion, headaches, vomit suppressors, antibiotics... things like that. (I think also thing for anxiety)
I don't know that they do the truth haha, but from what I have seen out there and according to popular belief: if I take them all it is very likely that I will die. So that's the plan, steal the bag of pills and ingest as many as you can before you fall unconscious.
-Positive Points of Plan B: It is the simplest to perform, it only consists of ingesting the pills.
-Negative Points of Plan B: I have no idea how much margin of error I have since I do not know the effect of the pills that my mother has saved. Maybe for this plan should do some research first (can't stand it anymore I want to leave now). I don't like unsported things as they can get out of control and in I really don't want to survive a suicide attempt. On the other hand maybe if you die, but it could be a slow and painful death, or maybe you just vomit the pills. and then the next day I have to give an explanation to my family. Maybe I'll faint and someone find me and take me to the hospital before I get a chance. to leave... it is too risky a plan.
---------PLAN C: "Free... in free fall"---------
I'm not the biggest fan of this plan... but ultimately the optimal thing is to have a backup plan: Defenestration.
Basically I will look for the tallest building nearby. I will try to see if I can access the roof and then the day marked: I will get drunk and go and jump from the high... thus ending my life instantaneously.
-Positive points of Plan C: Low chances of survival. Unlike the previous two, once I jump out of the building it is impossible for anyone to save me.
-Negative Points of Plan C: It gives me a giant laziness to have to go out and find a building at this point ha... It's also the only one that scares me(I have a terrible terror to the heights and even peeking out on the balcony of a 6th floor already makes me nauseous). As I said it is my last option in case for some The other two plans are rendered useless and you find yourself in a desperate situation.
Thanks for reading. Give up your opinion on what you think or if you have tried any of the HYPOTHETICAL cases I have spoken. Excuse me also my English.
These are the ways in which I plan to proceed.
I don't have any experience... only the thousands of times I have rehearsed it in my head and some desires that have accompanied me all my life. That's why I would like you to give me your opinion, and so you help me improve the plan.
---------PLAN A: "Look Mom... there's something bright at the bottom of the pool---------
I remember when I was a little boy of only 11 years old and fantasized at school about holding my breath and dying. Then I would be reborn as a spirit, not necessarily human. No one would see me or know I'm there, I wouldn't have to worry about anything else and I would only be free to explore the world. With the passage of the Years my desires to be reborn disappeared, but the need to leave this world remains intact.
This plan is an evolution, more mature and realistic: of that fantasy that I remember for as long as I can remember.
In my house there is a small pool in which I fit perfectly lying down and a lot of water covers me. I'll take some pretty heavy stuff from my yard and with A rope I will tie to my body so that it is permanently anchored to the bottom and it is impossible for me to climb by myself. I will also put myself in my hands and legs plastic handcuffs of these used by the police of the United States. This way there will be no way for the survival instinct to save me.
-Positive Points of Plan A: It is the one that is most likely to succeed. Once you are at the bottom of the pool, lying down with all those liters of water standing between my lungs and oxygen: there will be no turning back. And if in half an hour no one finds me and takes me out, I will have left this world :).
-Negative Points Plan A: It is the one that can be most traumatic for my family. The idea that my mother can wake up the next morning and find my cadaver there at the bottom of the psyche... I don't want to impersonate hi
would see me or know I'm there, I wouldn't have to worry about anything else and I would only be free to explore the world. With the passage of the Years my desires to be reborn disappeared, but the need to leave this world remains intact.
This plan is an evolution, more mature and realistic: of that fantasy that I remember for as long as I can remember.
In my house there is a small pool in which I fit perfectly lying down and a lot of water covers me. I'll take some pretty heavy stuff from my yard and with A rope I will tie to my body so that it is permanently
m.
---------PLAN B: "I think I have an indigestion... I won't be able to go to work today---------
Here in Cuba, health care sucks. It becomes very difficult to get pills. So my mother is used to putting away all the medicines she finds. in case one day they can be useful. It has a whole bag filled with pantries of pills, most for normal things like fever, tummy pain, indigestion, headaches, vomit suppressors, antibiotics... things like that. (I think also thing for anxiety)
I don't know that they do the truth haha, but from what I have seen out there and according to popular belief: if I take them all it is very likely that I will die. So that's the plan, steal the bag of pills and ingest as many as you can before you fall unconscious.-Positive Points of Plan B: It is the simplest to perform, it only consists of ingesting the pills.
-Negative Points of Plan B: I have no idea how much margin of error I have since I do not know the effect of the pills that my mother has saved. Maybe for this plan should do some research first (can't stand it anymore I want to leave now). I don't like unsported things as they can get out of control and in I really don't want to survive a suicide attempt. On the other hand maybe if you die, but it could be a slow and painful death, or maybe you just vomit the pills. and then the next day I have to give an explanation to my family. Maybe I'll faint and someone find me and take me to the hospital before I get a chance. to leave... it is too risky a plan.
---------PLAN C: "Free... in free fall"---------
I'm not the biggest fan of this plan... but ultimately the optimal thing is to have a backup plan: Defenestration.
Basically I will look for the tallest building nearby. I will try to see if I can access the roof and then the day marked: I will get drunk and go and jump from the high... thus ending my life instantaneously.
-Positive points of Plan C: Low chances of survival. Unlike the previous two, once I jump out of the building it is impossible for anyone to save me.
-Negative Points of Plan C: It gives me a giant laziness to have to go out and find a building at this point ha... It's also the only one that scares me(I have a terrible terror to the heights and even peeking out on the balcony of a 6th floor already makes me nauseous). As I said it is my last option in case for some The other two plans are rendered useless and you find yourself in a desperate situation.
Thanks for reading. Give up your opinion on what you think or if you have tried any of the HYPOTHETICAL cases I have spoken. Excuse me also my English.
