I'm letting it all go bit by bit but then- it has consequences. Neglecting our hygiene and living environment risks health issues. I feel like I'm teetering on the boundary now of doing just about enough not to get ill. But then, I know I'll need to make more effort soon.
It doesn't exactly help the mental state though, living in a neglected environment. But then, I seem to prefer being lazy rather than being content somewhere organized and sparkly clean.
I do agree though. It's getting to a point I'm so annoyed with it all- I'm starting to question my Dad. Because- he moans like mad about life. As in- you do see it right- the nature of life? That it's one chore after another? That life itself isn't even fair? We can get struck down by random bad luck. He agrees whole heartedly there.
But then- Why does anyone- knowing that- seeing- living the reality decide to bring children here?!! More bizarely because it must actually bring even more chores into their life. But, he just went silent.
I suppose it's got to be hurtful/ hateful that the child you made reasonable effort with hates the fact they were born. But then, I truly don't get it. Especially when so many people do whinge about all that life entails. Why create more beings to experience the same (unavoidable) thing?
