TheSoulless
I'd like to fly but my wings have been so denied
- Jan 7, 2020
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I get motivated at times, I really do. But I lack one thing – a bigger motivator.
My goal with recovery is to become a functional person again. The thing is that there's nothing after that. If I win the battles with my health, responsibilities, school and whatnot...the reward is that I can keep dealing with those same things? It doesn't sound appealing.
It's the "unknown" factor. I can't be sure if life would still work out for me after recovery and it's driving me crazy.
My goal with recovery is to become a functional person again. The thing is that there's nothing after that. If I win the battles with my health, responsibilities, school and whatnot...the reward is that I can keep dealing with those same things? It doesn't sound appealing.
It's the "unknown" factor. I can't be sure if life would still work out for me after recovery and it's driving me crazy.