🎶 "There's always gonna be a higher high, You could chase for the rest of your life"

[Life_and_Death]

Bigger Houses by Dan and Shay
Perspective....

when i first heard the lyric, i thought it was right. that theres always going to be "better" . but in some cases, its better to be grateful for what you have. being an addict it also hit me in that way "yeah, no matter how much i smoke or what drugs i do, itll never be enough"


but then thinking about it again at a later date.... to live life, for me, feels like running on a treadmill. i dont feel like im going anywhere. due to my life circumstances it really doesnt matter if i die today or tomorrow. at least if im chasing a high, im chasing something. im running a race, even if that race doesnt have a finish line....

 

[LaughingGoat]

To me this is why doing anything meaningful for me is regarding the journey, not just working towards an end result. Like you said, then I just feel like it's a treadmill and honestly I've achieved certain goals in life and didn't necessarily feel any differently. I've found way more fulfillment doing things that have impact on a daily basis and running the race so to speak over crossing the finish line.