There's a chance I might disappear tonight.

[PropaneOctane]

To the one whom i made a promise to not do it:

I'm sorry you had to trust someone like me.
Things have been piling up at home. I was too much of a coward to tell you this in ways other than jokes.
I didn't want to bother you, since you have worse problems than mine at home. I don't want to be another burden in your life.
Once again, I'm sorry.
I'm sorry for being a terrible friend.
There is a chance i might not be alive to tell you this.
Unlike me, you have potential to turn your life around.
Everyone wants the smarter one to be alive, not the - whose only true talent is drawing some animals for money.
Jealousy has been eating me from the inside out, but i didn't want to admit it to you. I didn't want to ruin our frienship because of that. Your life is more valuable to keep than mine.
Once again, I'm sorry.

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upd 1: mother found my rope >:( whoops. not today, i guess.

 

[moonmuse]

are u going

 

[PropaneOctane]

are u going

(small update) My mother found my rope just recently, so unfortunately not today D-:

 

[Galahad]

Is your message to someone on this forum (not asking names if yes)

What was your Mother's reaction, did you manage to pass it off?

 

[PropaneOctane]

Is your message to someone on this forum (not asking names if yes)

Nope, it's for someone irl who may not be even aware this forum exists

What was your Mother's reaction, did you manage to pass it off?

In a past attempt with that rope, she just got angry with me and pretended nothing happened from that day onwards. Today, she apparently just asked me where i found it (bought it without her knowing) and just went like "oh maybe my father or grandma just forgot it here" (convincing lie, i know) and acted in the same forgetful way, so i switched places to keep the rope like i always do

 

[Galahad]

Nope, it's for someone irl who may not be even aware this forum exists

In a past attempt with that rope, she just got angry with me and pretended nothing happened from that day onwards. Today, she apparently just asked me where i found it (bought it without her knowing) and just went like "oh maybe my father or grandma just forgot it here" (convincing lie, i know) and acted in the same forgetful way, so i switched places to keep the rope like i always do

Oh OK, clearing your thoughts. It's a good place to vent here.

Take care, glad you didn't get a lot of awkward questions.

 

[PropaneOctane]

Oh OK, clearing your thoughts. It's a good place to vent here.

Take care, glad you didn't get a lot of awkward questions.

Thank you, it's indeed much better to vent things here :)

 

[Galahad]

Thank you, it's indeed much better to vent things here :)

I intend to lockout all my devices so no one will ever follow my online activity to this forum and my username here is unique to here, I've never used it elsewhere.

 

[moonmuse]

I intend to lockout all my devices so no one will ever follow my online activity to this forum and my username here is unique to here, I've never used it elsewhere.

yea same its dangerous to leave my phone and laptop for the people they would make fuss out of nothing

 

[PropaneOctane]

I'm lucky my parents don't speak english and my phone is password-locked, gotta do something to my computer just in case