Eden2k

Eden2k

Experienced
Nov 20, 2018
228
Just met with counsellor today for usual therapy session. I hate myself more today than I did yesterday! Session started off okay. Nothing out of the ordinary. Today we went into some inner-child therapy stuff. Stuff like, "what things a loving, caring, protective caregiver would say." Okay fine...no problems so far. But when I was asked to let my inner-child merge into my adult self, that's when s**t got to much. Therapist asked me to let her know when I had done this. Told her straight, I can't let that happen. I don't want "it" anywhere near me. I just got up and left. I know this is my problem, but now I have this anger, rage in me that knows what I have to do now!
 
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TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
6,706
I wouldn't go to therapy anymore if it doesn't help you at all but instead makes you feel worse. Personally, I know therapy and counseling is full of shit in my circumstances since I've made up my mind already, plus it doesn't get me any closer to solving my issues or bringing me peace. Since it's your life, only you can decide if you want to continue or not.
 
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Eden2k

Eden2k

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Nov 20, 2018
228
I wouldn't go to therapy anymore if it doesn't help you at all but instead makes you feel worse. Personally, I know therapy and counseling is full of shit in my circumstances since I've made up my mind already, plus it doesn't get me any closer to solving my issues or bringing me peace. Since it's your life, only you can decide if you want to continue or not.
Your right, it doesn't bring me peace, which is all I've ever wanted. I'm done!
 
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Shewaitsforme

Arcanist
Sep 23, 2018
493
I agree with you there, doctor today suggested craft groups, im suicidal not a child. You go, you talk and when the session is over your left with it all in your head then you go self harm. Im so done with it, it has to end
 
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Made4TV

Made4TV

A hopeless hope junkie
Sep 17, 2018
574
Eden, I'm sorry. Therapy can be hard and painful. And sometimes things move too fast, or have unintended consequences. I've had sessions like that over the years where I kind of just have to hold it together until the next one, or until I can figure out what to do about whatever got undone during the session. Wishing you peace.
 
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Fucking loving it

Fucking loving it

Specialist
Sep 3, 2018
378
The only therapy I've gotten something out of was EMDR.
 
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Dog Food

POS
Mar 27, 2018
143
That sounds awful. Most therapy is full of shit.
 
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Eden2k

Eden2k

Experienced
Nov 20, 2018
228
Eden, I'm sorry. Therapy can be hard and painful. And sometimes things move too fast, or have unintended consequences. I've had sessions like that over the years where I kind of just have to hold it together until the next one, or until I can figure out what to do about whatever got undone during the session. Wishing you peace.
That's exactly how I feel right now. I try avoid going into dept about certain things, but when I am encouraged to do just that, then I feel like I am slowly unraveling. Sometimes things just need to stay untouched. I know why I'm messed up and now have realised that therapy is not the "reset button" for my mind.
 
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Lifeisatrap

Arcanist
Oct 5, 2018
408
Yeah, I'm at my most suicidal after going to therapy.
 
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Going Home

Going Home

Specialist
Sep 21, 2018
357
Like mentioned above I think certain topics should remain, "untouched". I hate when I get someone new and they ask certain questions. While I am answering those questions AGAIN I am reliving the trauma and have to leave therapy with those feelings raw. What am I supposed to do with that. I don't think they care.
 
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Buddyluv19

Experienced
Dec 13, 2018
272
Thereapy has been of little or no help to me. Yesterday I was talking to a friend and we got onto the subject of 'therapy'. He told me about his friend, I'll call her Beth. Beth IS a therapist herself and has been in therapy for over 20 years. The fact that Beth has been in therapy for a long time it so big deal since, at least here in the states, licensed therapists are required to get a certain amount of therapy for 'themselves' in order to stay licensed (side note: this seems like a good idea if for no other reason that then they can understand themselves the crap others of us 'in therapy' have to endure!)

Anyway, this therapist - Beth - who has been in therapy has become 'chronically depressed' and therapy has not been working so she is now going to ECT (Electro Convulsive Therapy). For those unfamiliar with this therapy, it is generally only used as a last resort to 'essentially' electrically stimulate the brain to pull the person out of depression.

Happily for Beth, the ECT seems to be working, but one of her big dilemmas is 'how she can continue to work in a field that has not worked for her'.

I'm not saying that therapy isn't helpful for a lot of people. It's just that it gets to be like a 'blanket approach'. And, when it's not working, at least in my experience, the blame is on the patient. I can just hear my fat ass, bitch of a mother (who, incidentally, has been like a CANCER in our family and would NEVER go to therapy herself!). She says, "Well, if the therapy isn't working, you must not really want to change." Ugh, thinking about this woman makes me want to CTB right now!

Anyway, I really wish Therapy had worked for me. The fact is, it hasn't. At least it hasn't been able to transform me into the 'nice, conforming, happy' individual my mother always wanted and, generally, is rewarded with approval from society. I hope it works for someone.
 
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Midnight

Midnight

Beyond solace
Jun 30, 2018
624
I'm so glad i never went too a psychiatrist...or any other form of therapy. Sounds like it would have the same result as me talking to a car to make it fix itself ...Reminds of that dave chapelle skit on positive imagery ... Hilarious.

Long time friend of mine is in therapy for 2 years .. as far as i can tell he's not nearly as far gone as i am and he's the kind of person you'd think therapy would actually work on. Didn't do jack shit ... Now after 2 years she got him on SSRI meds (that my run of the mill doctor easily prescribed years ago to me with a single visit) this guy is throwing money at this futile crap and he knows it doesn't work but he's afraid to stop.
 
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NotWorthLiving

Enlightened
Dec 8, 2018
1,264
Yeah, be glad about not going to therapy. It's exactly like the telling a car to fix itself. Like I'm here because I need help to fix these problems and you're just telling me tl fix them myself. Like we can't fix them ourselves. We're not wizards
 
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