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i am so lainpilled :3 (? days left)
- Apr 15, 2023
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Ok the title is ridiculously stupid but I very much mean it (at least in my case anyways). I honestly believe I'm beyond therapy at this point. I'm so detached from my physical form that I don't even care what happens to it which makes it difficult for any conventional means of therapy to have any remarkable effect on me. I've been depressed for over a decade now and there is no doubt that I have suffered some form of permanent psychological damage from that. My general distrust of authority figures and medical professionals doesn't help either. Sometimes when I do something stupid such as trying to talk to someone about my issues, I get the immediate suggestion to see a therapist. I've tried that and to no avail. It's worse as an adult when it comes to accessing affordable and effective mental health care but cost aside, I would basically have the cops called on me if I opened up even slightly. I swear therapy isn't for people with more severe, long-term issues. How am I supposed to fix myself if talking to someone results in them recommending therapy but then talking to the therapist would result in them calling police on me and then potentially being put in a psych ward where I only become more traumatised (and so the cycle repeats). If recovery were even remotely possible, maybe I'd reconsider but the system does not make it easy
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