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sleepless

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Aug 1, 2018
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I just came across a chilling score, Disintegrating by Myuu. Then a thunderstorm came rushing in. It's pouring hard, and I've never encountered thunders like these for years, they were really violent, and went on and on. It seems like a very eerie, hair-raising, ominous moment, I can't help envisioning my death once again. Somehow in someway, I am finding real comfort in this moment, I didn't want it to end. It's like the weather and music became in tuned with my pain. If this were a classic horror movie, I imagine it to be a perfect time to fade away into the clamor of the storm.
 
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madbananas

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Apr 29, 2020
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I just listened to that and wow, I can see why the storm then coming in would make you feel so eerie.

This is my favourite classical piece which gets me thinking of my death
'Rhapsody on a Theme of Paganini'
 
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rasputin

chronically ill
Mar 28, 2020
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Thanks for sharing, that was beautiful. My personal death song is dead flag blues by godspeed you! black emperor

"The car's on fire and there's no driver at the wheel
And the sewers are all muddied with a thousand lonely suicides

And a dark wind blows
The government is corrupt
And we're on so many drugs
With the radio on and the curtains drawn

We're trapped in the belly of this horrible machine
And the machine is bleeding to death

The sun has fallen down
And the billboards are all leering
And the flags are all dead at the top of their poles

It went like this:

The buildings tumbled in on themselves
Mothers clutching babies picked through the rubble
And pulled out their hair

The skyline was beautiful on fire
All twisted metal stretching upwards
Everything washed in a thin orange haze

I said: "kiss me, you're beautiful -
These are truly the last days"

You grabbed my hand and we fell into it
Like a daydream or a fever

We woke up one morning and fell a little further down -
For sure it's the valley of death

I open up my wallet
And it's full of blood"
 
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sleepless

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Thank you for sharing madbananas, rasputin. I've listened to both of them, one reminds me of a happy ending, and the other a lonely drive through a long desert road. The storm has passed, and I felt that I made a connection to 2 people from it and these music. And I think that's considered a good day for me, and I hope you too.
 
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madbananas

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Apr 29, 2020
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Thank you for sharing madbananas, rasputin. I've listened to both of them, one reminds me of a happy ending, and the other a lonely drive through a long desert road. The storm has passed, and I felt that I made a connection to 2 people from it and these music. And I think that's considered a good day for me, and I hope you too.

I feel the same too! Human connection goes a long way and I've been needing it. Definitely a good day for me too :)
 
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rasputin

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Mar 28, 2020
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Thank you for sharing madbananas, rasputin. I've listened to both of them, one reminds me of a happy ending, and the other a lonely drive through a long desert road. The storm has passed, and I felt that I made a connection to 2 people from it and these music. And I think that's considered a good day for me, and I hope you too.

I feel the same. Sending love to you both. ❤️
 
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Secrets1

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5* thread great scores. G'mornin
 
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