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Icunurse

Icunurse

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May 20, 2020
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I'm sorry this will be a rambling mess

For me one of the biggest issues is tolerating the expected pain or being brave enough to take the leap! But when I consider it, I have come across so many failed attempts, and then attempts that went on to die and the reality is that no one talked about pain. I first met a lady who drank anti freeze and was found in her car- survived and recovered fully,
Numerous drug overdoses, tends to always be with anti depressants or pain meds or cocktail of both, generally sleepy and then very confused that improves. 1x paracetamol only overdose was the most strange thing I've witnessed, a gentleman took 30 paracetamol at home, the next evening his work colleagues went round to check if ok- he was lucid enough to tell them he had overdosed but was slightly muddled ( no pain), it had been over 24 hours and the parvolex was administered quiet late, he came for monitoring and whilst was confused appeared calm ( he was over 55 so liver centres said no) over a shift he became confused and then unconscious, was tubes but subsequently died - never seemed in pain. Alcohol seems an ok death also if you can get enough into you.. one drug overdose of cardiac meds - huge digoxin and ramipril lead to a gentleman being monitored to him going into cardiac arrest ( that was def painful pre attest).. numerous Harding's ( some successful others not)... once had a arterial cutter but she generally was so traumatised by living that she didn't comment... so basically My random thoughts are that I've actually seen the consequences so why when I'm feeling so unbearably sad can I not want to be here but scared to do it?? I think maybe seeing the aftermath of failing scares me??

hope this isn't too confusing
 
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GoodPersonEffed

GoodPersonEffed

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What is Harding's?
 
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Kumachan

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So what is the TRUTH about suicide? That its scary and requires thorough research and planning? I knew that already mate...
 
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St. Jimmy

St. Jimmy

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May 3, 2020
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I'm sorry this will be a rambling mess

For me one of the biggest issues is tolerating the expected pain or being brave enough to take the leap! But when I consider it, I have come across so many failed attempts, and then attempts that went on to die and the reality is that no one talked about pain. I first met a lady who drank anti freeze and was found in her car- survived and recovered fully,
Numerous drug overdoses, tends to always be with anti depressants or pain meds or cocktail of both, generally sleepy and then very confused that improves. 1x paracetamol only overdose was the most strange thing I've witnessed, a gentleman took 30 paracetamol at home, the next evening his work colleagues went round to check if ok- he was lucid enough to tell them he had overdosed but was slightly muddled ( no pain), it had been over 24 hours and the parvolex was administered quiet late, he came for monitoring and whilst was confused appeared calm ( he was over 55 so liver centres said no) over a shift he became confused and then unconscious, was tubes but subsequently died - never seemed in pain. Alcohol seems an ok death also if you can get enough into you.. one drug overdose of cardiac meds - huge digoxin and ramipril lead to a gentleman being monitored to him going into cardiac arrest ( that was def painful pre attest).. numerous Harding's ( some successful others not)... once had a arterial cutter but she generally was so traumatised by living that she didn't comment... so basically My random thoughts are that I've actually seen the consequences so why when I'm feeling so unbearably sad can I not want to be here but scared to do it?? I think maybe seeing the aftermath of failing scares me??

hope this isn't too confusing
Thank you very much for your valuable insight. I can't imagine how difficult your job must be.

I feel that the people who I know think that suicide is easily accomplished. As if it's just going to happen to someone just because they have the thought in their mind. Nobody tells you about the extensive planning that it takes if you even want a chance at being successful.

They also don't mention how horrible the consequences of failure can be. It's not like TV or movies where you just wake up in a hospital bed all safe and sound.

The decision and process to successfully end your life isn't made lightly or easily, respectively, and I wish people who aren't suicidal understood and respected that.
 
Icunurse

Icunurse

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May 20, 2020
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So what is the TRUTH about suicide? That its scary and requires thorough research and planning? I knew that already mate...
No the truth is that what your preconceived conceptions are Are not guaranteed. I mean I hear that sn is a great way.. and if you read the survivors accounts there is pain, sometimes horrific so that contradicts the ideology some ppl feel towards this way..the truth is... that the real truth goes with the person clearly?!?.. I can say what I saw but there will be 500 accounts to contradict this.. my post was more a confused rambling regarding you believe something and it all depends the person/situation/time
 
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Kumachan

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Mar 5, 2020
396
sn is a great way.. there is pain, sometimes horrific

my post was more a confused rambling

yes it was!:) Conflicting reports are a part of the scientific research that is taking place here. Broscience.
 

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