Method The trick is to prepare everything so that you can ctb spontaneously

[Dani Paradox]

My thoughts exactly. My ctb will also happen on impulse. Right when I happen to have that perfect nervous breakdown, I'm gone.

 

[Lifeisatrap]

Idk, I'm at the point where I would do it right now if I could. I'm in panic everyday and I cant even work or live a normal life anymore. My anxiety is through the roof and my heart races. I'm just so afraid I will mess it up. I plan to hang, so I'm getting all the info I can to get it right

Perfect description of where I'm at also. Plus the added anxiety of having to bypass through the watchful eyes of overbearing parents.

 

[TAW122]

I believe I have made my decision in regards to ctb'ing long ago. I've pretty much already seen how my future will unfold and the 10 years ago that I have predicted has mostly come true. So I wouldn't consider my attempt to be impulsive since I've already prepared and made my decision long ago. I also don't have a set time since it would be due to the circumstances in life as well as the trigger event(s). I don't think that just because there was an event that pushed someone over the edge that their are acting impulsively especially when their mind was made up long ago. That's my two cents here.

you need a certain irrational state of mind - the perfect mix of anger, despair, hopelessness and rage, a state which you cant create intentionally

Exactly. I believe I had that similar state of mind over 6 years ago but didn't have access to good means so I didn't go through, plus my life temporarily improved enough to be tolerable for a short time but later went to shit.

 

[I’vehadenough]

Perfect description of where I'm at also. Plus the added anxiety of having to bypass through the watchful eyes of overbearing parents.

Well I'm too old for overbearing parents lol, but if you're that young, are you sure you want to end it all?

 

[Lifeisatrap]

I'm actually in my late 20's lol. Been wanting to move out for the longest but it's very difficult being that I'm on SSI. My parents have also become more protective and distrusting of me since my failed ctb attempt a few years ago.