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bellaisdonewithlife

bellaisdonewithlife

I see the world in grey while others see colour.
Jan 29, 2026
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I was finally able to find a portable CO meter yesterday that's about to arrive. I paid more for the best one I could find in terms of accuracy so the method has the best chance of success. That means I'll have all the supplies I need. I just need to find a good place to get this done when I'm ready.

The question is how long do I hang in there? Unfortunately I kept hitting road blocks with my projects so far, so if I want to give them a fair shot I'll have to wait until the end of September or October (2-3 months) before going through with this.

On some days lately I didn't even think I'd make it past July, so while I may try to survive a few months for my projects, I think about taking myself out all the time and I don't know if I'll make it until then.
 

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