It was after I was fired. She knew about my obsessive suicidal thoughts. She told me you are smart enough to know that you cannot do anything about it. Just let it (poverty and later suicide) happen. A fight against it almost impossible. Then she ended my therapy and did not want to see me again. I told my mom about it. She e-mailed my therapist. The therapist lied to her and told her that was not true. She had not given me up she just thinks psychotherapy was not the right therapy for me. My mom believes her till today my dad does not acknowledge it either. I have so stupid as fuck parents who abused me. But that's another topic.
I am angry I was that nice to her all the time. I did not mention my strong daily suicidality at the beginning and after I told her about it she concluded that there is no solution to my problem. After all that's probably true. However she is an awful psychologist and did not see that I was in a severe depressive episode....
It would be cool to show her that she was wrong and my problems are fixable. But sadly that seems to be impossible :( In addition to that she was quite religious. Fuck religions.
I am angry I was that nice to her all the time. I did not mention my strong daily suicidality at the beginning and after I told her about it she concluded that there is no solution to my problem. After all that's probably true. However she is an awful psychologist and did not see that I was in a severe depressive episode....
It would be cool to show her that she was wrong and my problems are fixable. But sadly that seems to be impossible :( In addition to that she was quite religious. Fuck religions.
