Venting The thought of dying is comforting

[kinderbueno]

The thought of being gone forever is comforting. I've never done anything which has had a positive impact on anyone, all I do is cause pain and destruction. Even my parents told me that all I do is bring them pain. I don't really want to live anymore, I've never helped anyone, never been a benefit to society, all I do is end up hurting people whenever i get close to them. I crave death so badly every single fucking day, for years I've been stuck in this state of anhedonia. I've tried recovery before, it's never worked. If I live then I will just be a drain to society

 

[FuneralCry]

I also find so much comfort in never existing again, in my case permanent non-existence is certainly all I've ever wished for. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[Ramsay Fiction]

Death has been a fascination of mine for a long time. It works itself into all of my writing. Symbolism everywhere. It seems so quiet. So freeing. I am comforted that no matter what, it WILL come for me one day.

 

[kinderbueno]

Death has been a fascination of mine for a long time. It works itself into all of my writing. Symbolism everywhere. It seems so quiet. So freeing. I am comforted that no matter what, it WILL come for me one day.

That's how I feel, even if I don't manage to successfully ctb by hanging I'll find a way

 

[VeryShy]

I'm very sorry about your situation. I hope that you in some way find relief from all pain and suffering.