Versailles
Enlightened
- Oct 1, 2020
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I want to leave here the story of my life, I have never told it from the beginning so this is a way to let off steam,
My life was destroyed the moment I was born, literally, my birth was forced, due to medical negligence, I suffocated in the process, running out of oxygen for a few minutes, which marked my whole life, I passed out, the doctors They told my mother that I would become a paraplegic, but instead I had a delay in my cognitive development, I ended up with facial paralysis, during the first years I only babbled, the doctors recommended that my mother give me medication to keep me asleep, which It also delayed my development a lot, my grandmother decided to take me away from all those medications and persistently make me walk, the fact that I can walk is thanks to my grandmother.
Years passed, when I was 5 years old everyone noticed the apparent mental agility I had back then, I remember receiving a lot of praise for having drawn the face of the liberator back then, my stepfather at that time drowned during one of our trips on vacation at the beach, my father was careless with me. At 6 years old I understood that I was different from the others, although I could not understand what autism was, I could see how the other children distanced themselves from me, as a result of this I isolated myself a lot, elementary school was hell, everyone made fun of me me, I was just a clown among the other children.
But when I entered high school, everything was worse, I was totally marginalized, I remember that during the first interview I had with the director to be admitted to the institute, the director told my mother that they did not accept mentally ill children, even so I ended up studying at that religious institute, I hated that institute so much but even so I do not regret having been there, since it was in that place where I met the best person of my entire life.
After everything that happened, I concluded that my existence lacked meaning or value, so I lived my days in an empty way, I felt a deep repudiation towards the government of my country so whenever I could I rebelled against them, which had as a consequence, the complete revocation of my nationality and therefore of my rights as a citizen of my country, so I had to leave my country to start over, I remember that at that time I found SS on the internet, my life has kept regular, neither getting better nor worse, so I still feel suffocated by doubts regarding my uncertain future
Thank you for reading
My life was destroyed the moment I was born, literally, my birth was forced, due to medical negligence, I suffocated in the process, running out of oxygen for a few minutes, which marked my whole life, I passed out, the doctors They told my mother that I would become a paraplegic, but instead I had a delay in my cognitive development, I ended up with facial paralysis, during the first years I only babbled, the doctors recommended that my mother give me medication to keep me asleep, which It also delayed my development a lot, my grandmother decided to take me away from all those medications and persistently make me walk, the fact that I can walk is thanks to my grandmother.
Years passed, when I was 5 years old everyone noticed the apparent mental agility I had back then, I remember receiving a lot of praise for having drawn the face of the liberator back then, my stepfather at that time drowned during one of our trips on vacation at the beach, my father was careless with me. At 6 years old I understood that I was different from the others, although I could not understand what autism was, I could see how the other children distanced themselves from me, as a result of this I isolated myself a lot, elementary school was hell, everyone made fun of me me, I was just a clown among the other children.
But when I entered high school, everything was worse, I was totally marginalized, I remember that during the first interview I had with the director to be admitted to the institute, the director told my mother that they did not accept mentally ill children, even so I ended up studying at that religious institute, I hated that institute so much but even so I do not regret having been there, since it was in that place where I met the best person of my entire life.
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/i-know-she-waits-for-me-on-the-other-side.64412/
After everything that happened, I concluded that my existence lacked meaning or value, so I lived my days in an empty way, I felt a deep repudiation towards the government of my country so whenever I could I rebelled against them, which had as a consequence, the complete revocation of my nationality and therefore of my rights as a citizen of my country, so I had to leave my country to start over, I remember that at that time I found SS on the internet, my life has kept regular, neither getting better nor worse, so I still feel suffocated by doubts regarding my uncertain future
Thank you for reading
