Venting the sixth of december 2024

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the sixth of December 2024 will be my last day on this planet
I don't wanna take my life yet I'm just waiting for the perfect time
doesn't matter how hard I try and better myself I have failed for the last 3 years of my life and I don't want to go through this anymore
therapists always mistreated me and the same thing happening in my family
I fucked up and lost all my friends and everyone that ever cared about me
and while trying to fix things in my life I got left behind by everyone and they stopped giving a shit about me
no one ever asked me how I'm feeling or even tried to help me, and If they did I was being treated like a sack of garbage. (therapists)
not just that I also have two fucking FAILED attempts behind me.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you find peace eventually, truly is so awful how some humans just create way more suffering.

 

[Sakura.]

I'm very sorry that this happened to you and that you are suffering so much.

I wish you well and hope that everything will be alright for you...

 

[iloverachel]

I am so sorry for all the pain and suffering and loss you are going through

May I ask why 6th of December in particular?

 

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I am so sorry for all the pain and suffering and loss you are going through

May I ask why 6th of December in particular?

I just remember that being the date where I fucked up and lost people that cared and evr gave a shit about me

 

[sneab]

What happened on your last attempts?

 

[UKscotty]

I hope setting a date doesn't make you feel worse.

For me I always encourage people not to set a date, for me I see nothing but anxiety, stress and a feeling of failure when the date passes.

Personally I don't even know what mood I will be in tomorrow let alone weeks or months away.

Good luck whatever you decide.

 

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What happened on your last attempts?

nothing much I just felt even emptier than before and I hate myself for failing

I'm very sorry that this happened to you and that you are suffering so much.

I wish you well and hope that everything will be alright for you...

love you

I hope setting a date doesn't make you feel worse.

For me I always encourage people not to set a date, for me I see nothing but anxiety, stress and a feeling of failure when the date passes.

Personally I don't even know what mood I will be in tomorrow let alone weeks or months away.

Good luck whatever you decide.

It doesn't exactly make me feel worse, I don't know how to explain it, It feels easier if that makes sense