I'm fighting a bullying situation at work, and a bit of me doesn't want to go till I have fought it. Fuck them.
Other than that, it used to be so I didn't upset my family, but I am now two years more suffering past that point, and I just want the suffering over. I have the right pill cocktail - I just don't know for sure if they are legit pills. I am also going to do another megadose of LSD to see if it helps again. It did help me so much - my suicidal thoughts are not here anymore in such a loud constant way. I still have constant agitation though and am super-lonely - so for those reasons, even without the suicidal thoughts, I just want it over.
The other method I would use would be nitrogen or some such, but I am nervous I am not so technical, so not sure I can make it work.