The reason I'm not going to CTB

[forgivemegod]

Ok, So I have a chronic illness that makes my life miserable, but the reason I'm not going to CTB is because there isn't a "safe" method available. Every method has a chance of going wrong and then you may have to live with a serious injury, and I already have a chronic illness. Even SN, people talk like it's easy and gentle, but I've seen videos and it's actually very violent. If I had a suicide button, I would press it, but that's not the case

 

[homeboundcripple]

this was my initial concern regarding carbon monoxide, but looking into it if the environment is sealed no leakage and the ppm concentration is very high then it will be reliable.

 

[Infinitespace_]

What video are you talking about exactly, I've seen some and they don't look that bad link plz?

 

[skeptikus]

I get really angry at thw thought that we have to plan to ctb instead of just being available without drama or hardship. Like wtf. This is my life. Why can i not have control when to leave?!?!????!!!

 

[homeboundcripple]

What video are you talking about exactly, I've seen some and they don't look that bad link plz?

Few days ago, Someone uploaded 3 people dying from SN and the vid got deleted

 

[no.one]

Few days ago, Someone uploaded 3 people dying from SN and the vid got deleted

they uploaded it on here, or another website? i'm asking because im curious to see the video also.

 

[homeboundcripple]

Was here.

they uploaded it on here, or another website? i'm asking because im curious to see the video also.

Was here.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand and I'm also trapped in this cruel, torturous existence for the same reason, I find it terrifying how trying to cease existing can go wrong and lead to way worse suffering and torture as a result, I find it horrific how there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel in this existence, all I want is an guaranteed painless death, I just want to cease existing peacefully and never suffer ever again.

 

[PrismHon]

Even SN, people talk like it's easy and gentle, but I've seen videos and it's actually very violent. If I had a suicide button, I would press it, but that's not the case

Easy and gentle relative to other methods and resources. If there was a button, would be a lot less users here (me included probably!).

 

[Apathy79]

In those 3 Chinese SN videos posted recently none of them did any of the protocol, fasting, antiemetics, etc., they just took it. All of them threw up a lot. So it was harder. But they all still died relatively quickly. It doesn't have to be as bad as it was for them, which as far as suicides go wasn't too bad anyway.

Edited to add: the videos are still on WPD in the suicide section on page 2. Posted a week ago.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

To me, sounds like disguised, pro-life blather meant to dissuade others.

 

[LetMeOut67]

Of course it's hard to die
Everything is hard for us fucking everything
How are you supposed to know if you have created the right conditions for exit by carbon monoxide?
I'm so fucking useless at everything that I'm bound to fuck it up absolutely bound to