Venting the pain of depression is indescribable

[hot]

every time when my anxiety gets worse again
every time when i get scared from things that arent there,
every time when i overthink everything
every time when i get aggressive towards my loved ones
every time when i lay in my bed and cry so hard that i get the feeling of throwing up
every time when i cry so hard that i cant breath anymore

it hurts so unbelievably. It doesn't stop hurting. It's like a wound that keeps bleeding over and over and you can't do anything about it, the only thing you're waiting for is to finally bleed out. I can't do this anymore.

This pain is indescribable, it hurts so unbelievably.
No matter how often I cry and beg and pray for it to stop. It never stops. It doesn't stop. I can't take all this anymore

 

[FuneralCry]

It's truly so cruel and terrible to me how there's all this suffering in existing, I hope you eventually find the relief you search for, existing truly is so painful.

 

[AbusedInnocent]

I understand, depression makes me want to bang my head against the wall

I really wish I could cry more, as a kid my father would scold me for crying or showing any negative feelings really and now I can't cry no matter how hard I try.

I want to scream and weep but can't, my body won't let me.

Maybe eating onions when I'm sad can trick me into feeling better.

 

[gloomie]

yeah, it never stops. it is like a wound; it bleeds onto everything i love all the time. it just rots you from the inside out.