the pain, i can physically feel my heart in pain

[miserabletires9]

the twitch, the muscle pulling. can't work at all. just want to end.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds really horrific what you have to endure, there really is too much suffering in existence and it's such a hellish world we exist in where one can suffer to such extreme extents. I hope that you find the freedom you wish for.