The only way to have intimacy is to hire prostitutes (and that makes me suicidal)

[Crematoryy]

I hate this sepulchral world that has denied me everything I wanted; I hate how reality has assigned me to a life of constant solitude. Day after day I long for more and more love. I realize that for many people, there is no lack of connection and human presence.

I despise those who have never felt alone on the swings in a park; those who have never sat on the bus bench, after a tiring day at work, and looked out the window wishing they were in the company of someone. I despise how these situations were reserved for me, to a large extent. In a nosological description, loneliness is categorized as a non-fulminant chronic disease. Its effects may be asymptomatic, but it slowly consumes like rust.

 

[clavicle]

real & I can't even cope on .is

 

[Pale_Rider]

Not me. There will be no placebos. Har har

 

[Ihatemonday]

I wish I had known sooner that being lonely was a million times better than being slowly consumed, abused, and eventually discarded by someone else. Embrace that loneliness, humans are rotten and demonic.

 

[iwishiwasnthere]

I totally get it.. but please don't hire prostitutes, many of them are victims of criminal organizatios and the money you're giving them doesn't go to them in full... I'm sorry you're going through this, I feel the same, I feel like I have this empty hole in my stomach were the loneliness is slowly consuming me

 

[ihatemyselfsomuch]

I hate how I have to spend almost a week's pay on something that 90% of men get for free regularly, and with love too. I sometimes wonder what it would be like to be intimate with a woman who actually wanted me, who I wasn't just paying.

Like you say though, it was rigged from the start, we never stood a chance.

 

[lunar02102009]

I understand what you mean , i envy people who have physical intimacy meanwhile the rest of us suffer no matter how hard we try to get our other half , we just have to pay someone to feel a little intimacy and rather good for some time

 

[Kanoh]

I hate how I have to spend almost a week's pay on something that 90% of men get for free regularly, and with love too. I sometimes wonder what it would be like to be intimate with a woman who actually wanted me, who I wasn't just paying.

Like you say though, it was rigged from the start, we never stood a chance.

Trust me that majority of guys in relationships do not get it for free. They have to format their whole life and spend all their resources into their relationship and to cater to their wife/girlfriend everyday. This is far from as nice as you may think it is.

 

[Dejected 55]

I had a handful of dates between the ages of 25 and 32 roughly. My first sexual experience was at age 28, and my last one was at 33 I believe. I kissed and held hands with the one woman I had a second date with... and the only sexual experience I ever had was with escorts. That taught me that the only way I could get physical touch was by paying for it, no woman has ever wanted to be with me for who I am. I grew disillusioned with the emptiness of sex with a stranger and opted out once I knew that was the only way I could have it.

Oh, and for whomever brought up the part about many sex workers being so involuntarily... that's a good point. If I'd ever gone to an establishment or something I would feel guilty now about that and wonder if I had inadvertently taken advantage of something and I wouldn't like knowing I participated in that. All the escorts I ever saw were independent ones back in the day... i.e. they worked for themselves and sometimes worked out of their own homes. I visited a few of them at their homes and had several come to my home. At least I knew I wasn't taking advantage of anyone and she was getting all the money I paid her.

 

[SchizoGymnast]

I'm a woman and I feel this. I've been single literally my whole life and for the most part I really enjoy it. But when I want it, I wantit. I guess I'm just not willing to have my space invaded by someone, or cater to someone, day in and day out just to get some. I don't know, I can't win.

 

[bankai]

Relationships are extremely tough work, Op. A lot of effort goes into keeping it alive. Also, I don't understand why so many people have it tough being single. I guess everyone is different. But if a relationship puts you through the wringer, really destroys you, then maybe you will understand the beauty of being single after that. I've pretty much come to terms with being single at this point.I have you guys at least.

 

[endlessmelancholy]

I am same but I don't have access to prostitutes