Obliviate
Abandon All Hope
- Aug 13, 2022
- 800
Hey guys it's been a while
So........I'm still here, idk why and how, I'm shocked that I am still alive. I need to get back to that depressive numb mindset again somehow.
Anyways, I know most users here are not big fans of the after life existing and wish for non existence (which I don't blame you) but one of the only reasons I hope the after life or heaven blah blah exists is for my cats. I had a kitten pass away 2 years ago and I still dread his death. The worst day of my life. Broke and shattered my heart and soul. I also have 2 cats now with me. To know that I may never "see" them or encounter them ever again just doesn't sit right with me. There's gotta be something out there man. I envision my little kitty running up to me after I CTB so we can be reunited again. They are the only "soulmates" I believe in. Don't really care about friends or family or who my romantic soulmate is suppose to be.........just my pets. It's an honor to be loved by an animal. The sincere unconditional loving relationships with pets are the only times I believe in the whole "meant to be" "crossed paths" theory. The whole "In all the universes, galaxies, time periods, life times, you and I crossed paths. It was meant to be. It's destiny" sounds good when it's a cat but when it's your abuser......it's just fucked up.
Just curious though, the ones that want non existence to be the the truth and would voluntarily choose that..........why pick that over the "glorious heaven" where you apparently get everything you have ever wanted? I mean shit sounds good to me especially after all the crap we've been though. I know it's hard to believe but if it's real.....cool.......if not damn I would atleast like my cats.
So........I'm still here, idk why and how, I'm shocked that I am still alive. I need to get back to that depressive numb mindset again somehow.
Anyways, I know most users here are not big fans of the after life existing and wish for non existence (which I don't blame you) but one of the only reasons I hope the after life or heaven blah blah exists is for my cats. I had a kitten pass away 2 years ago and I still dread his death. The worst day of my life. Broke and shattered my heart and soul. I also have 2 cats now with me. To know that I may never "see" them or encounter them ever again just doesn't sit right with me. There's gotta be something out there man. I envision my little kitty running up to me after I CTB so we can be reunited again. They are the only "soulmates" I believe in. Don't really care about friends or family or who my romantic soulmate is suppose to be.........just my pets. It's an honor to be loved by an animal. The sincere unconditional loving relationships with pets are the only times I believe in the whole "meant to be" "crossed paths" theory. The whole "In all the universes, galaxies, time periods, life times, you and I crossed paths. It was meant to be. It's destiny" sounds good when it's a cat but when it's your abuser......it's just fucked up.
Just curious though, the ones that want non existence to be the the truth and would voluntarily choose that..........why pick that over the "glorious heaven" where you apparently get everything you have ever wanted? I mean shit sounds good to me especially after all the crap we've been though. I know it's hard to believe but if it's real.....cool.......if not damn I would atleast like my cats.
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