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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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I am getting nothing done today. Nothing.
 
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Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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I have a million people coming at me now at my real job. I want to do nothing.
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
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Slow day today I wonder where everyone is.
 
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CyanideSoup

CyanideSoup

Memento mori
Oct 1, 2019
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Today's been such a awful day. I'm really struggling with this being a mum thing :( I love my daughter so so much but I just keep letting her down. I'm so overwhelmed by hallucinations all the time now that I can't focus properly. I really don't know what to do.
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
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Today's been such a awful day. I'm really struggling with this being a mum thing :( I love my daughter so so much but I just keep letting her down. I'm so overwhelmed by hallucinations all the time now that I can't focus properly. I really don't know what to do.
Being a parent can be tough, I know how it is all too well. How old is your daughter?
 
CyanideSoup

CyanideSoup

Memento mori
Oct 1, 2019
463
Being a parent can be tough, I know how it is all too well. How old is your daughter?
I have no idea how to cope with it. She's 2, and she's going through a really difficult faze.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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Today's been such a awful day. I'm really struggling with this being a mum thing :( I love my daughter so so much but I just keep letting her down. I'm so overwhelmed by hallucinations all the time now that I can't focus properly. I really don't know what to do.
How did the cake go? Did you make cheesecake?
 
Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
25,158
I have no idea how to cope with it. She's 2, and she's going through a really difficult faze.
2-4 is a difficult age in general. Try to hang in there for her. She really needs you.
 
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CyanideSoup

CyanideSoup

Memento mori
Oct 1, 2019
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How did the cake go? Did you make cheesecake?
I didn't get around to making it, had a bit of a melt down. But I will try and make one before Saturday.

2-4 is a difficult age in general. Try to hang in there for her. She really needs you.
Im trying my best but it just doesn't feel like it's enough. I keep thinking maybe she's better off with somebody else. But I'll keep trying.
 
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Jean4

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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

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True, but I want to and that's what I want to do as a college major.


Yeah I do.
Make an app that tracks meteors. That way it's a win win.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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11:40. Nothing done.

I need to shower. Very lightheaded and dizzy today. Still in bed.
Someone bump please.
 
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Its 1pm and still in bed, physical pains and symptoms awful at mo, but need to try and make something out of the day..............with so many illnesses/diseases, that is challenge enough without being broken to shreds in my heart and soul.................feel trapped..............just think if stay in bed world will go away but obviously it wont..............wish could turn back clocks.................have nothing to exist for.................nothing.................sorry, makes me feel like am self pitying, try not to but when totally alone it really is hard to be here.
My friend, i feel the same. I've spent all day trying to diagnose internet connection problems, when I was going to spend it trying to get help with the plumbing problems. and all of this on top of the health issues that don't just take a holiday because other stuff gets complicated. If I could turn back the clocks too... or even stay in bed. But that luxury is not something I have. I feel like a donkey, flogged relentlessly into work and never given a rest. I imagine you feel the same, so you have my sympathy for what that is worth.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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Someone please bump.

I will not write until I shower. I'm going to do this. 12:04 pm.
 
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Morphinekiss

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Jun 8, 2019
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Confused as hell. An instructional coach came into my worst class yesterday and praised me. Granted they were slightly better because she was there.

I've never felt as lost and confused as I do now. I don't want to be alone today but it is what it is. I only feel comfortable around one or two people at this point.

I always thought I was doing horribly but my observations were great. What I saw as glaring problems in my classes were just tiny nuisances that needed redirection apparently. If you ever want to talk about classroom/teaching bs my inbox is open.

in other news I got fired by my liver surgeon because I'm not losing weight fast enough. so now I just wait for my tumors to rupture and go to the ER and hope I don't die from internal bleeding.
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
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I always thought I was doing horribly but my observations were great. What I saw as glaring problems in my classes were just tiny nuisances that needed redirection apparently. If you ever want to talk about classroom/teaching bs my inbox is open.

in other news I got fired by my liver surgeon because I'm not losing weight fast enough. so now I just wait for my tumors to rupture and go to the ER and hope I don't die from internal bleeding.
We have another teacher!? What do you teach? Your tumor situation sounds painful. I'm so sorry you're dealing with that.
Very slow day indeed. We broke 10,000 posts on this thread!
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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12:30. Showered and brushed my teeth. Back in bed.
 
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I always thought I was doing horribly but my observations were great. What I saw as glaring problems in my classes were just tiny nuisances that needed redirection apparently. If you ever want to talk about classroom/teaching bs my inbox is open.

in other news I got fired by my liver surgeon because I'm not losing weight fast enough. so now I just wait for my tumors to rupture and go to the ER and hope I don't die from internal bleeding.
WTF? You can only lose weight so fast even when not eating! it's doctors like that that make you want to list them as the reasons why you died.
 
Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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I always thought I was doing horribly but my observations were great. What I saw as glaring problems in my classes were just tiny nuisances that needed redirection apparently. If you ever want to talk about classroom/teaching bs my inbox is open.

in other news I got fired by my liver surgeon because I'm not losing weight fast enough. so now I just wait for my tumors to rupture and go to the ER and hope I don't die from internal bleeding.
You need to eat to lose weight. One of the reasons why I stopped.
If you can't eat, do protein shakes. That's what I do.
 
Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
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Why do I have to have a hard time articulating myself? I gotta write down what I need to say to my nurse practitioner about giving me the injection now that I have it or else I'll forget it.
 
Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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Why do I have to have a hard time articulating myself? I gotta write down what I need to say to my nurse practitioner about giving me the injection now that I have it or else I'll forget it.
So write it down. What's the big deal? I write down things daily. When I asked my doc he is the one who said just that. What's the big deal? Write it down.

Hard boiled eggs.
 
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Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
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So write it down. What's the big deal? I write down things daily. When I asked my doc he is the one who said just that. What's the big deal? Write it down.

Hard boiled eggs.
I guess I'm just afraid of being laughed at for having this articulation problem. My mom looked at me crazy when I tell her I have to write down what I want to say sometimes.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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I guess I'm just afraid of being laughed at for having this articulation problem. My mom looked at me crazy when I tell her I have to write down what I want to say sometimes.
I have articulation problems. You know what I do for a living. Articulation is my JOB. I write it down.... and NOBODY CARES. ;)

Tell that to your mother lol.
 
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