
BlueWidow
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- Oct 6, 2019
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I'm alive even though I shouldn't be. I had a dream where I missed two buses heading out. I mean actual buses not metaphorical ones. An older man from my job got on one and told me to hurry up but I was too late. The second bus was smaller and was full before I could get on to get a seat so I wasn't allowed on. How symbolic. I woke up with huge back pain. Actually my back still hurts my right shoulder blade is killing me but whatever. Good afternoon everyone. I don't understand anything right now so I'm just not going to think about it. I had an annoying debate with myself about taking my SN tonight but logic wins in the end as I know for sure my sister would hear me throwing up(she's a light sleeper) and would come check on me. Again, not gonna think about that anymore right now though.
Interesting, yet frustrating dreams. I get it. So, I thought your sister was leaving soon. Why isn't she gone yet?
I'm sorry you're having such a bad time. If it's any consolation, I completely relate to your shoulder blade and other pain. My entire body is aching from trying to contort myself all night so that this muscle I pulled wouldn't hurt. The muscle is a little less sore today, though still extremely painful, but now the rest of my body is also aching. I can't even hardly move without being in pain now. I only got out of bed and put clothes on because I'm expecting packages that I have to go outside to get. Otherwise, I would've just stayed in my pajamas all day and not done anything.
I have also been debating when to take my SN. There's no way I could've taken it last night, or today because I'm so loopy at this point that I can't even think straight. I don't even know if I'd be able to measure it out properly. I'm going have to get some sleep, ironically, before I can ctb!