The Official 2020 Everything But The Kitchen Sink Post

[Squiddy]

OK Squiddy.... gonig to tell you something I don't think I"ve told others.... you know how I can program and I do IT stuff...

I have drastic issues reading at times. I cannot read aloud, at all. I "read aloud" by reading a line, memorizing it, reciting it from memory, breathing in, while quick-memorizing, and repeating. I NEVER read aloud, I'm always reciting from memory. The reason I do well in speeches and don't need note-cards (except for memory refreshing?) yep, I can't read from them! If I did try to read aloud without memorizing?

For example:
1) This sentence here if I memorized and spoke aloud as if I did it live.
2) This sentence if here memorized spoke I and loud a as I did it if live.

I typed sentence 1 first, I then did other things, then read it aloud without memorizing it first and typed it as close as I could to what I said into 2.

I also have a poor memory too

 

[Carina]

I also have a poor memory too

my quick memorization is just short-term memory for under 10 seconds. a lot is just memory tricks :)

 

[Squiddy]

Then you've adapted! good for you :)

You've figured out how to make things work for yourself in spite of your own circumstances. That is praise worthy!!

Thanks :) when I told my mom that I need to write things down, she just looked at me as if I was crazy and asked why I needed to do that

 

[BooGirl]

I kind of want a vanilla danish.

 

[BlueWidow]

I'm here and very drunk. Hope you're all ok

I'm sort of okay. I pulled a muscle and it's hurting me every time I turn in bed. I wish I was drunk. I bet that would make this muscle stop hurting. I may get up and make a drink later. . . Or see if I have any leftover pain pills from my husband that might work for this muscle.
How was your birthday celebration? Do you have any heat yet?

 

[Jean4]

I'm here and very drunk. Hope you're all ok

Glad you checked in. :)

 

[Squiddy]

Just threw up a 3rd time. I'm hoping this passes

 

[BlueWidow]

I kind of want a vanilla danish.

Sounds good

Just threw up a 3rd time. I'm hoping this passes

I hope you don't have the flu or something.

 

[Squiddy]

Sounds good

I hope you don't have the flu or something.

I just hope I'm okay by tomorrow so I can go to the program

 

[BlueWidow]

I just hope I'm okay by tomorrow so I can go to the program

Yes, I know you want to go to your program tomorrow so you can hear your song in your music therapy class. Hopefully, you'll wake up tomorrow feeling better. And that astroid will wait until after your music therapy class is over. LOL!

 

[Squiddy]

Yes, I know you want to go to your program tomorrow so you can hear your song in your music therapy class. Hopefully, you'll wake up tomorrow feeling better. And that astroid will wait until after your music therapy class is over. LOL!

Yup lmao. I also haven't had my chocolate ice cream yet so it'll definitely have to wait lol.

 

[Carina]

oh wow, i'm so tired i think all my pills have kicked in night all :)

hope everyone can sleep!

 

[Jean4]

oh wow, i'm so tired i think all my pills have kicked in night all :)

hope everyone can sleep!

I think I'm on day 4. Night!

 

[BlueWidow]

oh wow, i'm so tired i think all my pills have kicked in night all :)

hope everyone can sleep!

Goodnight!

 

[Carina]

I think I'm on day 4. Night!

nooooooooo!

 

[BlueWidow]

I think I'm on day 4. Night!

Stan better get himself in gear and let you get some sleep!


We need some of these poisonous sleeping poppies. Goodnight everyone.

 

[Squiddy]

I think I'm gonna head to bed. Still pretty nauseous

 

[Backwood_tilt]

I think I'm gonna head to bed. Still pretty nauseous

:(

hope you feel better soon. goodnight!

 

[Squiddy]

:(

hope you feel better soon. goodnight!

Night :)

 

[Backwood_tilt]

i changed my mind about my 10-year letter to my ex partner. Fuck it. No need to put that stress on nobody to carry that out for me, and she probably won't appreciate hearing from me at that point. I'm going to leave it where it is, and write her nothing.

 

[MysticPerception]

I kind of feel sick after accepting the fact that they're actually most likely gone now. If you don't know what I mean check Stan's thread. I'm going to bed now since I work tomorrow. Ugh my emotions are twisting up my stomach I hate this. Goodnight everyone.

 

[Backwood_tilt]

Threw up from drinking. again.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Threw up from drinking. again.

It's too expensive to be doing that! You must resist those types of impure urges.

 

[BlueWidow]

I kind of feel sick after accepting the fact that they're actually most likely gone now. If you don't know what I mean check Stan's thread. I'm going to bed now since I work tomorrow. Ugh my emotions are twisting up my stomach I hate this. Goodnight everyone.

Goodnight, thanks for your post on Stan's thread. I know she said she was getting close. If she did pass, I hope she found peace. I feel very sad about her loss. She was so sweet.
Despite everything, I hope you sleep well.
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Here I am up again because I can't sleep. I can't seem to lie down because that injury hurts more when I try to lie down and move around in bed and it makes it so that I can't breathe. It's painful for me to take a very deep breath in. It's not my lung that hurts though, it's a muscle near or around my lungs.
It seems similar to my husband's plural effusion, only I don't have any water in that area. Instead it's sore and painful and swollen. I've already taken 2 25mg pills of diazepam, which did almost nothing. Granted the pills are from 2015 because they were pills that my husband got that he didn't use and I hate to just throw away pills, so I kept them in case I might be able to use them for something. But now when I need them, they don't work. It says "take as needed for muscle spasm". It only made me slightly drowsy. Then I had to get up because I couldn't breathe. I just took two Vicodin pills containing 5 mg of hydrocodone and 500 mg of acetaminophen. Those are from December 2012, so I don't know how powerful they're going to be at this point. Hopefully they'll help me sleep at least a little bit. As I said, I can't breathe when I lie down, but I also get to a place where I can't sit up because I get so dizzy and sick I can't hold my head up from all my other health issues— so it's going to be interesting to see which one wins out.
This may end up being the extra push that I need to ctb. If I go a few days where I can't sleep, and I can't sit up but I also can't lie down— I can see that driving me to ctb.

I also looked online and from what I can tell, if I were to go to an emergency room or urgent care center, they would most likely tell me to take some Tylenol, rest, and put some ice on it and not really do much to help me. The Internet says they won't do anything about something like this unless you've had it for a few months.
Yay, another illness or injury that doctors won't think is important enough to help me with!
I'm assuming if I collect enough of these illnesses, the cumulative effect might be enough to kill me. How many illnesses or injuries that doctors don't believe are real or important enough to treat do you suppose it will take to kill me? I seem to have quite a collection of them going already.

God I hate Vicodin! It makes me so nauseous! But I'll put up with it if it makes this pain go away enough so I can lie down for at least a few hours.

I just wish I was already dead. Whoa! I think the Vicodin just kicked in (or it could just be my normal dizziness from the low thyroid ). The room is spinning. I better sit down.
Okay, I'll give it a few more minutes and then I'll try to lie down. I guess if I don't come back it means it worked and I am able to get a few hours of sleep.

I hope @Jean4 is finally getting some sleep.
Help her out Stan & take care of our friend who may have just passed.

 

[ArtsyDrawer]

The Progress: going to pick up a "17th form" (medical thing) from the clinic.

The problem: my only shoes are soaking wet, so my feet are numb from being cold.
My only jeans are slightly less wet, so my balls aren't frozen solid, but still begging for removal.

The conclusion: the outside sucks!

 

[Jean4]

Night 4. Back to bed

 

[CynicalHopelessness]

@Jean4 still no luck sleeping?

 

[Jean4]

@Jean4 still no luck sleeping?

Nope. Been up taking care of something at real job world.

 

[Carina]

I kind of feel sick after accepting the fact that they're actually most likely gone now. If you don't know what I mean check Stan's thread. I'm going to bed now since I work tomorrow. Ugh my emotions are twisting up my stomach I hate this. Goodnight everyone.

I just read the post. I hope when you wake up you feel a bit better...even though some feelings will probably remain.

 

[CynicalHopelessness]

real job world

Sounds like a place I'd rather NOT be reincarnated in