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Carina

Carina

Angelic
Dec 22, 2019
4,005
Any purge is acceptable at this point. Unless it's this kind of purge!
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I'm thinking of a dull spork used to slowly cut off limbs while duct taped to a wall while honey and milk poured on us to have insects and rodents slowly eat at us.... but maybe I'm just evil.
Seriously, my brain is screwed up... I can come up with some twisted crap that should never be unleashed to the public!
 
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Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
25,158
I'm thinking of a dull spork used to slowly cut off limbs while duct taped to a wall while honey and milk poured on us to have insects and rodents slowly eat at us.... but maybe I'm just evil.
Seriously, my brain is screwed up... I can come up with some twisted crap that should never be unleashed to the public!
That's it? You've got to let the creativity flow sometimes.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,557
I was thinking.

I wasn't a hoarder, but depression caused me not to clean, do dishes, throw things away etc, so you would have thought I was.

Since I started doing my lists of things to do
My gums have stopped bleeding because I have been brushing my teeth
Nobody is complaining about an odor coming from my apartment from either the cat box not being cleaned or all the garbage
Milo (my cat) has never known what it was like living in filth
When my toilet broke, I could call the super. I could let him in to fix it without embarrassment.

3 years ago when I was hospitalized and came back, visiting nurse came in, took one look and refused to come back. Now there is no problem with Ozzy coming in.

Do those lists. It certainly helped me.
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
25,158
I was thinking.

I wasn't a hoarder, but depression caused me not to clean, do dishes, throw things away etc, so you would have thought I was.

Since I started doing my lists of things to do
My gums have stopped bleeding because I have been brushing my teeth
Nobody is complaining about an odor coming from my apartment from either the cat box not being cleaned or all the garbage
Milo (my cat) has never known what it was like living in filth
When my toilet broke, I could call the super. I could let him in to fix it without embarrassment.

3 years ago when I was hospitalized and came back, visiting nurse came in, took one look and refused to come back. Now there is no problem with Ozzy coming in.

Do those lists. It certainly helped me.

Structure is crucial in anyone's life. Your message is solid. Everyone has to maintain some sort of order out of this chaos called life!
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,557
Structure is crucial in anyone's life. Your message is solid. Everyone has to maintain some sort of order out of this chaos called life!
Especially when you are like me. I don't leave my apartment. I don't have the structure of going to work.

Maybe I will start getting dressed in real clothes. If I don't like it, back in my pjs.
 
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BlueWidow

BlueWidow

Visionary
Oct 6, 2019
2,179
I was thinking.

I wasn't a hoarder, but depression caused me not to clean, do dishes, throw things away etc, so you would have thought I was.

Since I started doing my lists of things to do
My gums have stopped bleeding because I have been brushing my teeth
Nobody is complaining about an odor coming from my apartment from either the cat box not being cleaned or all the garbage
Milo (my cat) has never known what it was like living in filth
When my toilet broke, I could call the super. I could let him in to fix it without embarrassment.

3 years ago when I was hospitalized and came back, visiting nurse came in, took one look and refused to come back. Now there is no problem with Ozzy coming in.

Do those lists. It certainly helped me.
I admire your resolve @Jean4, especially with everything you have to deal with. I'm happy the lists are helping you so much and it's having some positive impact on your life.
If anyone deserves some positive impact, it's you. You send so much positivity out, that it's only right that it should come back to you 1,000 times over. :heart:
 
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Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
25,158
Especially when you are like me. I don't leave my apartment. I don't have the structure of going to work.

Maybe I will start getting dressed in real clothes. If I don't like it, back in my pjs.
Agoraphobia correct? I experience this to a small degree. The more I expose myself to the world, the more likely something bad happens.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,557
Agoraphobia correct? I experience this to a small degree. The more I expose myself to the world, the more likely something bad happens.
Yes, and I have no money, no family or friends... so what is the purpose of leaving and what would I do?
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
25,158
That's been my experience.
It fucking sucks, but in a way it doesn't. It has probably saved me from doing alot of crazy shit.
Yes, and I have no money, no family or friends... so what is the purpose of leaving and what would I do?

I have no family left and I even had to state it today as part of my big meeting. Crossed out an entire section on that list.
 
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BlueWidow

BlueWidow

Visionary
Oct 6, 2019
2,179
Goddammit! I have people walking around on the roof of my house because they're here cleaning out the gutters but it's freaking me out!!!
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,557
I am considering buying food that I want but really don't need. I have enough food, but nothing to eat lol.
 
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Carina

Carina

Angelic
Dec 22, 2019
4,005
Goddammit! I have people walking around on the roof of my house because they're here cleaning out the gutters but it's freaking me out!!!
Well that sucks. Makes you wish you could shoo them off
 
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BlueWidow

BlueWidow

Visionary
Oct 6, 2019
2,179
I am considering buying food that I want but really don't need. I have enough food, but nothing to eat lol.
I know that feeling! You stand there with the refrigerator door open staring at all the food, but none of it looks good.
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
5,903
Finally out of group. Now to head to the pharmacy to pick up my injection. Hopefully, it doesn't need a prior authorization from the insurance company.
 
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Carina

Carina

Angelic
Dec 22, 2019
4,005
I am considering buying food that I want but really don't need. I have enough food, but nothing to eat lol.
I bought 4 cases of pop just because I wanted it for no reason other than that... does that count?
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
25,158
I've seen almost everyone in this thread grow for multiple months. I've got to say I'm proud of you all!
 
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Carina

Carina

Angelic
Dec 22, 2019
4,005
I've seen almost everyone in this thread grow for multiple months. I've got to say I'm proud of you all!
Holy crap... I've been around a lot longer than I expected.... well can't have that.
 
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MysticPerception

MysticPerception

I'm back and I'll still smile for you
Dec 31, 2019
1,252
@Jean4 it took me over an hour to find it but I knew this image would come in handy some day. Clearly this is a sign because I've had this saved for years. Killer tomatoes did not go unnoticed by me. Nice song actually.
KillerTomato
 
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BlueWidow

BlueWidow

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Oct 6, 2019
2,179
Well that sucks. Makes you wish you could shoo them off
I mean, I'm happy they're here to get the gutters cleaned. It's just a weird feeling having them tromping around up above my head. I keep worrying that they're going to take a wrong step and go through the roof. God, I hope that doesn't happen. I'm pretty sure my roof is in good shape because it just got put on right before I moved here, so it's not even three years old yet, but it's still just a weird feeling. And they're not walking on it as if they're walking above someone's head. They're just tromping around up there like elephants or something. :pfff:
That's what it's like. . . it's like I have a herd of elephants stomping around above my head.
:pfff:
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
25,158
Holy crap... I've been around a lot longer than I expected.... well can't have that.

You crazy fucker! Yea I said it, because I relate!
 
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MysticPerception

MysticPerception

I'm back and I'll still smile for you
Dec 31, 2019
1,252
I mean, I'm happy they're here to get the gutters cleaned. It's just a weird feeling having them tromping around up above my head. I keep worrying that they're going to take a wrong step and go through the roof. God, I hope that doesn't happen. I'm pretty sure my roof is in good shape because it just got put on right before I moved here, so it's not even three years old yet, but it's still just a weird feeling. And they're not walking on it as if they're walking above someone's head. They're just tromping around up there like elephants or something. :pfff:
That's what it's like. . . it's like I have a herd of elephants stomping around above my head.
:pfff:
I had people working on my roof where I lived a few years ago. Lasted for over a week and it was horrible. I could barely sleep with them stomping around all early morning and day!
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,557
@Jean4 it took me over an hour to find it but I knew this image would come in handy some day. Clearly this is a sign because I've had this saved for years. Killer tomatoes did not go unnoticed by me. Nice song actually.
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Which is why you can't leave. Nobody except you would have understood ;)
 
Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
25,158
Holy fuck, listening to my roommate drama is classic.
 
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LegaliseIt!

LegaliseIt!

Elementalist
Nov 29, 2019
808
omg why do people at my workplace pronounce cache (kash) like kas-hay

Answer: they want to sound Swave and Deboner!
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Seriously though my metro area has over 9 mil people....
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ok back to virtual machine creation
 
Soulless_Angel

Soulless_Angel

existence is futile
Jul 10, 2019
2,225

I don't pronnounce it that way, but how does one prommounce it?
 

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