Sylveon
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- Oct 10, 2023
- 491
Apologies if this belongs in Recovery or OffTopic.
Today, as I was going through my usual motions, I was just thinking about how it's the little things in life that make me feel... I don't know; catching that sunset while sitting at the back of the bus late in the evening, walking past a dog peacefully taking a nap beside a closed door, watching a train disappear into the horizon, and wondering where it is heading, looking at the light coming from a tiny cottage window on a cold winter night and thinking about how warm it would be inside, walking through the city on a rainy day without an umbrella; you get the point; there are just so many of these "little things" that make me feel like I'm a part of something greater and not just a mindless NPC going through motions every single day.
I sometimes wish that this was all that was there to life. I feel like life as a concept has so much potential, yet I can't help but hate the way it exists in our world, even without going on a tangent about how much suffering our species causes, the people who do get to experience normal lives just live through the same day every single day for decades, until they're too old to do so and the next generation takes over, starting this cycle all over again... Don't get me wrong, there's nothing wrong with living a normal life, but when I ask myself how much effort I have to put in just to live a life that is already being lived by countless others even as I write this post, I feel like fast-forwarding to my inevitable end is the only logical thing to do, even if it means missing the experiences I could have cherished, had I chosen to continue... but again, it just feels as though I'll be doing a disservice to the people who have spent so many years raising me; I can't just call it a day as much as I'd like to.
Once again, this was just another one of those tangents that my mind goes to every now and then, the only difference being that I was not lazy enough today, hence this post lol.
Thank you for reading till here; hope you have a wonderful day ahead. <3
Today, as I was going through my usual motions, I was just thinking about how it's the little things in life that make me feel... I don't know; catching that sunset while sitting at the back of the bus late in the evening, walking past a dog peacefully taking a nap beside a closed door, watching a train disappear into the horizon, and wondering where it is heading, looking at the light coming from a tiny cottage window on a cold winter night and thinking about how warm it would be inside, walking through the city on a rainy day without an umbrella; you get the point; there are just so many of these "little things" that make me feel like I'm a part of something greater and not just a mindless NPC going through motions every single day.
I sometimes wish that this was all that was there to life. I feel like life as a concept has so much potential, yet I can't help but hate the way it exists in our world, even without going on a tangent about how much suffering our species causes, the people who do get to experience normal lives just live through the same day every single day for decades, until they're too old to do so and the next generation takes over, starting this cycle all over again... Don't get me wrong, there's nothing wrong with living a normal life, but when I ask myself how much effort I have to put in just to live a life that is already being lived by countless others even as I write this post, I feel like fast-forwarding to my inevitable end is the only logical thing to do, even if it means missing the experiences I could have cherished, had I chosen to continue... but again, it just feels as though I'll be doing a disservice to the people who have spent so many years raising me; I can't just call it a day as much as I'd like to.
Once again, this was just another one of those tangents that my mind goes to every now and then, the only difference being that I was not lazy enough today, hence this post lol.
Thank you for reading till here; hope you have a wonderful day ahead. <3